fixed at last
our pc is finally fixed... again! after one week, my mom has finally had the time to bring my bestfriend to the shop. shempre, pinagsabihan n'ya muna ako na maging mas maingat sa pc, blah blah blah. badtrip kaya.. pero okay lng. masaya na ako kasi active na naman ako! yahooooooo!!!
anyway, my clearance isn't finished yet. sir bob went hiking and mam karen is soooo strict with the notebooks. every lesson and example must be written... correctly! todo check talga sha.. karir amf. sa tuesday ko pa talaga matatapos ang clearance ko. ah, mag-uuwi pa pla ako ng gamit ko sa locker!!! ang dami nun.. sob.
hay.. im so sleepy naaaahhh..........
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/30/2005 02:40:00 AM
happy happy happy again
this day is one of the happiest days of my life! although in a few hours my dad will be going back to vietnam, it seems that someone doesnt want me to be sad...
this day started normal. i went to school for the damn clearance but to no avail. so i went to festival mall like the usual. on the way, i saw this white crosswind and immediately something shouted in my head that "it's your car!!!" i refused to believe it at first but when the car drew nearer, as in it was already behind our jeep, i saw the plate and it was indeed our car! my nerves started to get haywired. i leaned more so as not to let my parents see that i was on the jeep but i think my mom recognized jodee. haha. i immediately texted my father that i was in festival. safe na ko! some juniors were there and he was also there. hahay! happy happy...
vanessa arrived and we stayed in xsite up to 8pm. good thing there were no more people so we were free to dance, dance, and dance. it was my sis' first time in 2 years! wow. haha.. i think she did pretty well naman. our dad fetched us and here i am now, still online...
i had many chatmates earlier, not just in ym but also in irc. nahkoh, our reunion was moved to saturday. pwede na. hehe.
are you wondering why im happy happy happy??? because he said, "bago umalis may ssbhin aq sau... bb na i luv u" whoah........ is it really him?! haha.. but it doesnt matter...
im so happy happy happy!!!!!!
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/28/2005 02:10:00 AM
waaahhhh
somehow, i was expecting that answer. i mean, i've this nagging feeling that.. well.. you know. and my guess was right. that was the confirmation i needed.
whoopee!!! im so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :)
happy happy happy happy!!!!!!!!!
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/27/2005 04:20:00 AM
more drama....
april 27, 2005. 2am in the morning. another memorable date for me. i started chatting at around 1 am because i slept earlier at 7pm, right after i ate dinner. i thought i wasn't going to fall asleep that fast! supposedly, i was to watch full house and csi new york but dreamland caught me first. as i connected to the internet, i started chatting and of course, there were only a few people. i macked jansen (as usual). he seemed a little odd today coz he asked "pano malalaman na mahal mo ang isang tao?" hell-ooohhh??? ikaw ba yan?! sabi ko kpg msya sha kpg anjan.. kpg willing sha msktn dhl dun.. kpg willing sha mgscrifice.. kpg ndi kumpleto araw kng ndi nkkusap/nakikita.. i think basically ganun. well i really don know much! love creeps up on me and before i know it, im in love! he promised to tell me who his crush is before he sleeps. we chatted about certain stuff. i stood up to get something to eat... gosh! my appetite is indeed getting bigger and i always search for something to eat during midnight.
oh yeah, card giving ata ngayon. damn... hindi ko pa tapos clearance ko. hay bahala na. ngayon ko pa rin lang gagawin 'yung narrative tungkol sa ginawang outreach namin. nako naman! pahirap sa buhay!!! pwede namang ibigay na lang 'yung card, wala nang clearance clearance. aba naman, graduate na kami tapos pahirapan pa ng pagkuha ng card. pa'no kung hindi makapag- enrol dahil sa card?! sus naman.......
im chatting with my romanian friend again. i really like his name "alex." i dont know why but it just strikes me. sounds cute, actually. haha! ang dami kong natututunan dun. kaya pala nagkakaroon ng net split ay dahil sa hackers na sobra- sobra ung information na sinesend, flood kumbaga. ehehe..
kahit hindi ako inaantok, kelangan ko na mag-quit kasi maaga pa ako mamaya. wala na rin naman akong kachat. hahay.. onga pala, 'yung tungkol dun sa crush ni jansen.... sabi n'ya he feels uneasy sa gurl na 'yun kasi hindi n'ya ma-explain 'yung nararamdaman n'ya. sabi ko isipin niyang mabuti para hindi na rin siya masaktan kung sakali. aba, ayoko siya masaktan.. =) last minute na niya sa pagcha-chat at sinabi na rin niya kung sino ang gurl...
secret! hehehe...
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/27/2005 02:31:00 AM
graduation day!
this day has arrived and finally... im gonna be graduating.
congratulations to me!
congratulations to batch '05! i laud you for a job well done!!!
really, i love this batch and my sister's batch is only second. although we've been called the "black sheep," i still think we rock! sama-sama kami sa kalokohan, sa kalungkutan, lalo na sa kasiyahan! hay... im going to miss all my classmates and friends! i know i'll be having a hard time sa college... good luck to me and to them!
well... oras na para mag- ayos. hahaha...........
p.s. im so driven by my emotions. sorry for the language sa ibang posts ko. hahaha... im only human. >:P
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/25/2005 12:56:00 PM
crazy!
whew! finally i'm connected to cyberspace... i missed all those kbps and stuff! what happened this week? uhm.... lemme think.........
i spent most of my time in festival mall, playing ddr and ez2dancer. i just cant get enough of those dance machines! though im not that good, i play okay i guess. i like the upbeat songs and i stay away from the ddr's heavy mode coz i know i cant handle it. hah! a token saved is a token earned. ^_^ i spent MORE than my allowance and my atm account is =whoosh=. haha! dont care really coz i know i'd be able to save money during the next school year. i hope... we were supposed to have a baccalaureate mass practice last tuesday so i went to school at 8am only to find out that the practice was still in the afternoon! that sucked so the usual pascal festi people went to xsite and danced our day away. yeah, we didnt attend the practice but we did attend the final practice the next day. we're still good. haha. aside from having dun and going nuts in xsite, of course, i had my own hidden agenda: i wanted to see *certain* people. my long waits paid off and i got to see the both of them. happy.... happy.... happy.... ^_^
i talked to jansen on the phone last wednesday? cant remember. i had nothing to do and he was supposed to call me last monday but he didnt coz he felt shy and all. tsk. we talked for about 2 hours. the damn line got disconnected and when i called him again, it was all scratchy and i couldnt understand a thing he was saying. damn it. but it's okay. at least we talked.
our clearance aint finished yet and we still have a looooong way to go before it gets damn completed. all that crap just to get your clearance signed for your card's release? oh please... why dont they just make it easy for the students?! i mean, it is going to be their fault if a student fails to enrol coz the card wasnt released. that sucks!!! and like it's hard to commute. i can feel all the eyes on me coz im still doning my uniform. i go to the mall wearing our uniform coz we're not allowed to wear casual clothes.
guys are headaches! well, some are. a girl could go insane interpreting the signals and understanding the male species. so hard.. tsk tsk. haha. i dont know what's the real deal now. i wish i know what's going on exactly on their minds. hay... a situation like this makes me wish that i had mind-reading abilities...
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/23/2005 01:01:00 AM
waiting...
im turning nocturnal and... im going back to my old addicted-to-the-net self. this day has been like a foreign dish that you can't figure out what the ingredients and the taste are...
heat the pan and toss in a lot of happiness and mix some hurt. stir fry with sadness and pour jealousy. after a few minutes, add another hurtful past experience in love and friends' opinions. turn the heat higher. of course, dont forget to put the calming words. pour in more jealousy after mixing another cup of hurt. finally, put a funny koreanovela and sprinkle a large amount of laughter. this may result in hyperactivity but with a positive mood. allow to simmer in low heat. pour in acceptance and cups of sacrifice plus a dash of drama. finally, mix in someone's regret, prayer, and repentance. toss in some patience. stir with a lot of music for additional great taste.
oh yeah, i slept at 3am and woke up at 7:45. 4 hours of sleep? not bad. i dont like commuting, especially this time of the year. like, hell-o?! it's already april and we still have classes. i went to lola bunny for autoload. when i turned around, i saw justin. what followed next was a brilliant exchange of lines.
me: ui!
justin: ui!
see how brilliant?! belch... but i felt really happy. =) anyway, i went downstairs again to get the damned xerox copies of my card. andrei was with me and we passed by the canteen. before that, i saw justin on the hallway and gave him the autograph book. i apoogized to jansen for not brining my calculator. damn it! i feel so bad. around 12pm, mom fetched me from school. i ate lunch, got dressed... and fell asleep. good thing we didnt continue our plan to go to up manila coz when i called up, the results were moved to wednesday. oh great! they're really fast... ¬_¬ i continued with my slumber but was disrupted by the halo2x that my brothers bought. wow! for the first time they treated us. a sure way to beat the heat.. although it wasn't enough, it made me feel somewhat cooler. like the usual, i sat on my "throne" (meaning the chair infront of the pc) and started chatting! the number of munscians that chat has decreased now adays.. i guess it's because they're studying for their finals. good luck to them! i learned that dad jodee and some pascal people were in festival, along with some juniors. awww! i wanted to go to the mall! too bad... sen went online and we chatted for a while. the best thing i heard today (or perhaps, read) was "basta... gusto ko ung ugali mo.. mas mabait ka kesa sa mga kakilala kong babae." awww shux! that was really nice and touching! =) =^-^= but damn it.. he ruined it later on. he asked if rachel went online. damn... of all girls, why, oh. why. an. in.co.ming. fresh.man. that's... shit. i wanted to scream at jansen and say that i'm jealous! hiro and marvin comforted my sorrowful soul but i just couldn't make myself okay, especially that we're tackling issues about justin and jansen. ouch, man! marvin's a sweet guy. no wonder many like him. =) he said that he hopes justin would realize my importance to his life one day and then we can get together finally. people only realize the importance after facing a loss. aww.. sen set his "away" mode and said "mmya n lng kpg may makakausap na." huhuhuhuhu! i started thinking that he doesnt want me to talk to him na.. i didnt pm him when he got back. i was actaully so hurt. was this karma? ergh.. i decided to do what i did before with justin: let him be happy and make him feel that i'm still there for him, all the time and i'd be glad to take him back with open arms... sweet? dramatic? emo! well, that's how i feel and... if that would make him happy then why not? i only want the best for him. or what he thinks is the best for him. *huff* full house came and i macked jansen! yeah!!! we started talking in chat again and our first topic was full house of course! i changed my nick to "`jessie." i dont know.. i can relate to her somehow. she's kind, sweet... strong... ready to give anthing for her loved one's happiness. (-_-) kuya john said jessie was stupid and i was superior. huh?! haha.. yeah, im not that stupid but i can be a martyr like her. full house did it's magic on me and changed my mood into a light and hyperactive one. better, right? jm macked me and asked for forgiveness. after what he did, he expects me to accept his apology just like that? nah.. i dont think so! i told him that it takes time and i cant accept his sorry yet. he's so Godly now. good for him. he better change his attitude. im the type of person who doesnt easily forget, especially if terribly hurt. although im a warm person, i can be the coldest one you'd ever know. ends of the extremes? yeah, that's me.
sen is still sleeping. i wonder what happened to his "20minutes." sen and i talked about finding someone like jessie and how lucky he'd be to have one, just in case. i told him that he better take care of her and love her truly, nurture their love and be loyal. he said that he doesnt know how but he hopes he'd be able to learn, his first gf would be experimental. hn. silly boy. i hope he does find his "jessie" and love her truly. mushy mushy mushy...
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/12/2005 02:30:00 AM
lots of care... hahay!!!
"bye vika take care "
wahihihihi!!! im shhhhhoooo happyyyyyyy..... (=^.^=)
i'll take it by heart... don't worry! hekhek...
*adek!* lolz...
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/11/2005 02:58:00 AM
starting at 2pm
i woke up at 2pm. i was expecting that i'd be waking up at an earlier time but when i went to the sofa, i looked at the clock and the hands were pointing to 2 and 6.. 2:30! 12 hours of sleep. wooowww...
anyway, i sat infront of the computer and started chatting my afternoon away. alex was online again. jeez, i learn so much from him! he knows german, spanish, romanian, and english. cool! i wish i also knew how to speak languages other than english and filipino. hhmm... i wonder if he's good lookin'... haha! well it doesn't matter. he's a good friend and his english is good.
marvin macked me and asked me who my crush is. er, i was really hesitant to say it to him coz they're really good friends! hhmm.. but i gave in coz louanne said it would be better if i said it to him. i can ask help... hehe! i gathered the courage to tell him and i trust him coz lou trusts him, too. his guess was correct. i wonder if my feelings are that obvious? i macked him and he didnt answer. hmpf! then he got disconnected. way to go... tsk. actually, im still confused. ___ or ___?
owww.. jansen's finally online! after one week of chat absence, he decides to show up. cool! up to now we're still chatting and it's 1am already. we've been chatting for hours... there's so much to talk about....
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/11/2005 01:30:00 AM
ho hum...
oh.. it's already april 10, 2 am and im not yet sleeping! im still chatting in mirc and guess who my chatmate is?! a romanian 16 year old guy who lives in spain and is known by the name alex. he's a nice guy! we talk a lot about almost anything and he's just the typical teenager.. so like me. i wish i can see him.. haha.
i dont think the winners of the mr and ms science pageant are deserving. they dont look good and it's obvious that they only won through money. that sucks man!!!
at least i got to see ______, but <<-------->>wasnt there... not bad. haha. i miss him really!!!
i cant take it.. im so sleepy.. later dudes...
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/10/2005 02:50:00 AM
where, oh, where art thou???
i went to ust today to ask for a reconsideration on my microbiology and biochem course. we were supposed to leave at 7 or 8 but i woke up at quarter to 8! i hurriedly took a bath and dressed up while thinking, "my golly! of all days to be late!" tsk! mom, mao, and i were on the road at around 8:30 am and heavy traffic welcomed us! gosh.. i was starting to think that we weren't going to make it on time but i pushed that thought away and instead thought,"im not gonna be late.. i can make it on time!" ha.. desperation. i thought of positive things. and because of the Good Lord's providence, we made it on time. i had the chance to climb the centuries old stairs of the ust campus and mom said, "cla rizal nadulas na din dito.. hehe" (i asked whether people have slipped on the stairs in the past.. hehe!) we were advised to go back on monday for the reconsideration. i was about to be interviewed but i wasnt interviewed. i didnt have a copy of my card! oh sheesh!!! the school hasnt released our cards yet and we can only bring xerox copies.. we went there for nothing! that just sucks.... i wasnt interviewed and i still have to go back on monday. what's terrible is that we have to commute beacuse of the coding! waaaaaaaahhhhh!!! i dont like commuting, specially in manila! i mean, it's a hassle ya know. the pollution, people, traffic.. what a way to start the week! hay... i dont like commuting.................. anyway, i went to school at around 3pm, just in time to catch them going home. haha! dad jod, jonica, hazel, roxie, bendict, edher, and others were going to the mall so i went with them! imagine, going to school just to head to the mall! hehe.. we played in the dance machines for like 2 or 3 hours! my feet really hurt up to now! good thing mom gave me my atm. i withdrew some money and then i bought an autograph book at national bookstore. i stayed there for quite sometime coz my mom also said that i have to go to the outlet at 8:30 to get something. sayang ang 22 pesos.. dodoble yan kpg umuwi pa ako. i know i looked silly kasi paikut- ikot ako sa national bookstore. hehe.. after paying for the slam book, i decided to go to xsite to check out whether any munscian was there. surprise surprise. i saw justin and ferdie so i joined them. they danced in the ddr machine and ez2dancer. i bought some tokens but ferdie didnt want to dance with me. nahkoh! pero okei lng.. i dont have to buy tokens for next week. marvin also went there. f4 completed! we went home at around 9pm and vanessa was at the outlet, waiting with ate cristina. vanessa started telling me how jc and he almost "parted ways" (they're not formally bf/gf...) and im glad they resolved everything! i know it would have hurt vanessa coz jc's her first love.. ^_^ as usual, i sat down in front of the pc and started chatting and typing the night away........................................ but something is missing.... and i miss that "something" terribly.............................
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/08/2005 11:28:00 PM
unforgettable...
i opened my email accounts and started erasing the unimportant files. on my fourth and last email acct, i clicked the mail from my other email add, wondering what i sent to myself this time. imagine, i sent the mail to myself and i cant even remember what it is! haha.. anyway, surprise, surprise! it's my supposedly blog entry that i typed during the holy week. we spent three days in batangas. actually, i only watched movies, ate, slept, and typed blog entries. oh yeah, i played basketball! hehe.. okei, not really played. i got the ball and started shootin' it and my dad challenged me. he said that if i'd be able to shoot three consecutive times, he'll give me a hundred bucks. of course, im not the type of person who backs down on challenges so i dribbled the ball, knowing that i've got my thing for basketball shootin', and then shot my way to money. it wasn't easy ya know. all of us five kids tried our luck and we all won! haha.. later on, we played graduation with my cousin. it was so much fun! i prctced shootin' without jumping. i shoot like that, ya know, with a little jump. hehe.. i know it looks stupid.. but who cares anyway?!
back to my supposedly blog entry. it was all about ______. wonderin' who he is? haha.. he's been mentioned in my entries a couple of times. it's up to ya if u wanna know. anyway, i wrote about how it all started. i have three "chapters" and there's still a continuation. oh, i already wrote the continuation! haha.. but i didn't make it obvious and im not planning on publishing my first three "chapters." think of confessions. uhm.. i've yet to write about my favorite date, prom night. haha. i really like him but, unfortunately, he likes another girl. too bad. im thinkin, why is it that all the guys i have an eye for like other girls? is my role really "the best gal pal" in every situation??? haha... although im happy with the way things are, i wish sometimes that we can be more than friends. ayiiihiiii... :P he's kind, funny, cute, cool, true to himself, a great companion, lovable, and i think i can depend and rely on him. although he says silly things sometimes, those hold the truth and i still think he's cute. ^_^ im not showering him much attention because i feel somethin' "funny" for him, it's just that i've become fond of him and he means a great deal to me now because he's my close friend. i remember, we came to a point that everythin' was goin' downhill because someone irrelevant was feelin' very jealous of him. he said that he has to avoid me coz he's the reason of it all. ouch! that hurt me a lot. i dont want my close friend to leave me. that hurts eh! he said that it hurts him, too. good thing everythin' is fine now between us and we're back to normal. great! ^_^ im so thankful that i met someone so unforgettable. im taking care of our friendship now... though im still hopin for somethin more ya know.. hehe!
"magkaibigan lang naman kami talaga eh." <-- this is soooo cliche (accdng to dad jod. hehe)
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/07/2005 12:57:00 AM
me?!
Your positive traits:
You're lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go
You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire
You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you.
Your negative traits:
You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.
You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.
Not the most emphathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems.
Your ideal partner:
Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.
Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.
An open minded person, who's willling to have a non-traditional relationship.
Your dating style:
Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy.
Your seduction style:
Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.
Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.
Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing.
Tips for the future:Settle down a little.
Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.
Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can give your partner a little more attention.
You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time.
Best day for a date:
Wednesday
wowowow... i was browsing through blogthings.com and stumbled upon the love profiles. of course i hurriedly clicked the gemini link and this popped out. yeah, i can say that all most of what's written there is true, especially the positive and negative traits. haha. those are soooo me.
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/06/2005 08:01:00 PM
another one..
Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/06/2005 07:54:00 PM
love style..
Your Love Style is Storge |
For you, love and friendship are almost the same thing
And your love tends to be the enduring, long lasting kind
(You've been known to still have connections with exes)
But sometimes your love is not the most passionate
Leap before you look, and you'll find that fire you crave |
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/06/2005 07:36:00 PM
bored...
uhm... i cant put my picture here. whenever i click the picture button, nothing happens. i wonder why. anyway, the stuffed toy that sen gave me is really cute! i love it! so adorable... ^_^ i always carry it around the house, i sleep with it and right now, it's comfortably plopped on the left side of the keyboard. i leave a small space for it.
waiiii... he's online na. hehe. i took a bath... whew.. it's so hot hot hot! i read that paris hilton trademarked "that's hot." sheesh. did it really originate from her? i mean, of the billions of people here on earth, one could have said it a second earlier than her. oh well, she has the money and fame... maybe she cant find anything to spend her money on. id be glad if she'd give it to me na lang. haha.
my dad will be going home on april 22. just in time for my grad ball on 23 and grad on 25. yay! less than three weeks and ill be leaving munsci. huhu.. it's so sad... i have to leave all my friends.. even my favorite person! aside from my sister, that is. fine, favorite persons! my original favorite person knows that he's that important to me. ^_^
i cant go to the mall today because a) my mom told me not to b)my cash is on the low c) she'll kill me if she finds out i went out. hahaha... i had so much fun yesterday!!!! well, i cant wait for friday.
im so bored.. ive got nothing to do! ( -___-)
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/06/2005 12:00:00 PM
fun fun fun...
i had fun today! there wasn't any grad practice so my classmates and i decided to make a gate pass so that we can go out of the school and head to the mall! haha.. mrs. diaz is angry at our batch, specially the boys, coz we've been "wrekcing the school property." our diploma, cert. of good moral, and other documents are on hold. mom said that if some of the students fail to confirm or pass requirements to their desired colleges then the parents can file a lawsuit. tsk. problem is that the school admin isn't doing any kind of formal investigation. as if the true culprit will admit. hah! anyway, we went out at 2.30 and rushed to the mall!!! yeah! there was almost no crowd in the dance machines so i felt okei dancing. i dont dance because i wanna show off, it's because i have fun though im not that good. ^_^ i spent soooooo much today! haha.. it's okei coz we dont have classes for two days. i think ill be going to the mall on friday. i danced 'til my feet hurt! cool..... i cant get enough of the dance machines now. we even sang at the videoke private rooms! i heard bendict sing for the first time. wow.. he's pretty good. i wasnt able to join the genio forces at shakey's coz i already ate and i was having too much fun. hehe. we went to the dance machines again and finished up all my tokens. i still have one left.. i think i'll use it next week. i've no more money na! hehe.. but it's ok. i went home at around 7 and im thankful that my mom didnt kill me. haha!
i watched csi:ny earlier.. so good!!!!!!!!!! i love csi really! it's my favorite show!!! i like suspense and thrillers because i like solving mysteries or being part of figuring out the solution. just like dan brown's books. haha. i even followed the online quest in www.danbrown.com. actually there are two challenges, the first one was questions and answers while the second one really takes you all over the net. i finished both! yay! hehe.. thanks to google.. well, everyone's allowed to google some stuff coz not everyone a historian or symbologist. ^_^
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/05/2005 10:13:00 PM
roxie's bday
it's roxanne's bday today.. gotta greet her! haha..
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/05/2005 12:24:00 AM
this day is so lovely!!!
ahahahahahaha!!! this day is one of the best ever!!!!
i woke up at around 8:30. supposedly, i was to wake up at 7:30 or 8 but i felt too lazy so i extended my sleep. when i was all ready, i walked to the tricycle terminal and lo and behold! at the back ride was a cute guy! hahaha! "now this day is going to be very interesting," i thought. and so i gladly sat at the backride of the trike. the cute guy and I boarded the same jeep. whoopee. ^_^ i arrived at 9.30 and we went to the guidnce office to pass the rquirements in physics. i lack one quiz booklet. tsk! so... every senior was required to watch pauli's play but the girls were also required to go too pedhs for the women's month celebration. the guys there were rude coz they kept on shoutng "miss miss!" and whistling at us.. argh! and so.. i slept at the program coz it was totally boring! dad jodee txtd me and askd if i was going to festival. okei lng skin kng ppnta sha... then i said "sna pumunta chuva ko.." reply nya "lbre mo ko token" me: "cge lbre kita dlwa kpg pmnta chuva ko" hehe! michi and i headed to xsite, festival mall and minutes later, dad arrived with louanne. he shouted "oi! tig 20 kmi!" sbi ko "bkt?!" "kc dlwa pa yang dnla namin!" hahahha!!! i saw justin... then jansen! i had no choice since they sort of filled their part in the agreement... 40 pesos for two guys? not bad! haha...
sen said he went there to buy me a gift. awww.. i asked him and ferdie to accompany me to mcdo for some mcflurry. gosh, my ice cream craving is getting bigger and bigger! i treated them (while in mcdo, sen asked me what gift id lyk.. he suggested a blueberry cheesecake but i said i dont want it coz nauubos un) and we played basketball. hmpf. those two are good. haha.. ferdie and sen disappeared. i went to the other dance mchines. when the two came back... i saw jansen holding a blue magic paper bag! my gift!!!!!!!!!!! grabe.. he then approached me and gave the bag.. lou, dad, and ferdie teased us.. haha! i was only half expecting the gift and it really made me so happy and delighted...
sen gave me a gift!!!
yay! hehe.. i went home at 7:30 coz my mom's gonna kill me. the dog's name is "keith" and i really love it!!! it's so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as in!!!!!!!! i name all my stuffed toys after the people who gave them to me. "jansen" na ang name nun. "keith jansen" kya? hehe! bsta.. im so so so so happy!!!
ill bring it to school tomorrow.. hehe..
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/04/2005 11:59:00 PM
monday.. morning...
it's... 2:16 in the morning.. april 4, 2005... im not yet sleeping!!! in 7 hours ill be going to school na.. in 5 hours the flag ceremony will be starting.. haha! anyway.. new weekl, new adventures... ill post later in the evening.. i hope i'd be able to find my missing requirements in physics.. ja ne!
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/04/2005 01:51:00 AM
headache!
after the retreat, i went home immediately and arranged my stuff coz i wanted to go the mall. well, i was supposed to meet up with sen but he didnt show up. too bad. i was half-expecting him to be there but when i went to xsite, i saw some fleming people and feynmann people. louanne was there and i asked if jansen came, she pointed to justin so i repeated the question again. "wala eh," she said. louanne misheard me pala. hehe!
my head was aching terribly when i went to the mall. justin, marvin and me went to the mantou stall to eat. it lessened the throbbing of my head and it gradually went away. good!
but there're other things bothering me. like.. my feelings for j3. i've been going to festival mall more often now because a) i'm not doing anything and i'd lyk to play in one of the dance machines or eat b) i want to buy something and c) i'm half- expecting j3 to be there. hayay! im trying hard to avoid feeling that again for him. i mean, yeah, i loved him once but.. you know the quote "ang pagmamahal kumukupas ngunit hindi naglalaho"? *in english: love fades but never goes away.. naks! hehe* i still care a lot for him!!! when i became depressed over things, he was the first one to be at my side. he talked to me and said encouraging words.. i felt his presence and his care. he even lent me his comic books which i really like. after that, we became close again and we started hanging out together more. i remember during prom night.. he texted me that i looked beautiful and he wont dance with another girl unless he has danced with me. awww... his first prom and i was his first dance. hehe.
and... just recently he held my hand. i know i shouldnt be making a great deal of this but... i just dont know!!! when i asked him to go with me to buy a blank cd, he suddenly held my left hand and urged me to go inside the store. i was actually surprised because he doesnt hold a girl's hand and i was actually the first one to remove my hand coz.. uhm.. it felt quite not right.. but good. hehe! next one happened at xsite. he sat in the base of the post near the ddr machine and i went up to him to ask what happened to his neck (insect bite but he told me it was a kiss mark... yeah ryt! haha) and started poking the bite. he held my hand and then he looked ate me.. i felt this fuzzy feeling.. and i also felt the warmth of his hand.. waaaaaiiiiii!!!!!!!! (=^.^=) hihi..
im fighting the returning feelings kc baka ako rin ang maging kawawa... yoko na masktan ulit. hay... magnda na ung relationship namin as close friends, ayoko na masira un. although it's okay with him that i had a crush on him and i loved him, well.. i dont want to strain things...
oh yeah, louanne said that nagtaka si justin nung nasabi nya ung pinpsabi ko dapat kay jansen. haha!!!
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/03/2005 03:44:00 PM
hhmm...
You Are 45% Normal
(Somewhat Normal) |
While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself |
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/03/2005 03:35:00 PM
i sooooo love this day!
weeeehhh!!!!!! our pc's fixed!!! yay! i'm soooo overjoyed!!! anyway, our retreat just ended earlier at 5 pm in the afternoon.. i learned a lot of things. although it's not my favorite event, it's the best ever!
i arrived late and the session was already starting. good thing the retreat master started the per section activities . i thought it was gonna be boring.. we started off with the discussion of "rejection" and... grabe! natamaan ako sa mga sinabi ni kuya mike. i thought of the two times i rejected jm. first was during the prom night and the second was when he asked for another chance.. (T__T) then the affirmation activity came next and it was where you're going to praise your groupmates.. no but's and if's. too bad because we ran out of tym and we had to say everything in times 4 speed. waaaaahhhh!!! we also had the candle lighting ceremony where a person was gonna hand the white (thank you) or red (sorry) candle to the person he/she wants to say something to. i said to myself that i wasnt gonna cry but... i broke down infront of my bestfriend! hehe.. i started saying thank you and before i knew it, i was crying and i could hardly speak! and we were given the chance to hug everyone in our section and in the other sections. uhm.. our session ended and we went back to our rooms. the girls were separated from the boys. jm and i talked outside the room, which was legal by the way, and then... he asked me for another chance but i didnt give it to him (again) coz i know i'll just hurt him and i cant return his feelings. yeah, sad.. sad.. too bad for you fans of our love team.. tsk tsk.. ^^; im not angry with him.. anyway, i was not that emotional during the second day of the retreat. im pretty happy with my family and i feel proud and lucky and blessed to have them!!! i mean, we arent facing any probs and we're at peace with each other. our needs and wants are given. too bad i didnt receive any letter from my parents but i understand. mom's busy and she had appointments so she wasnt able to attend the meeting. dad's not here in the country. we can always talk naman. uhm.. i think i have to stop being so demanding, ya know. im a spoiled brat and sometimes it gets into my head too much that when my mom says "no" to a whim (like askin for a new celfone though my phone's still ok) i start thinkin "why am i sooo unlucky?! she's so unfair.. huhu" i should gve more importance to the hard- earned money. hay... this is one of the disadvantages of being a brat who gets what she wants most of the time.. im too blind to see how my parents work hard for the money. *naks...* anyway.. i spent more than i should have spent.. hay.. i wonder what happened to my change of heart. hehe!
my head hurted terribly coz i didnt sleep in the afternoon. i was soooo sleepy but the discussion was still on going and i cant go to the cr.. waaaaaahhh... we went home at around 5pm.. home sweet home.. i missed my bed!
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/02/2005 09:55:00 PM
