HE is SO HOT!! Right now, the monitor and the keyboard have drool all over them. Haha! I WANT AN EQUUS POSTER!!! Got the pic from PerezHilton.com =)

I've been thinking of someone for the past couple of days... I admit I still haven't shaken him off my system. Even the smallest of the things remind me of him. I'm still hung-up.

Goodness. Two years have passed pero parang wala lang ang panahon na iyon. I think I'm still in love with him. Or at least a part of me is. Or am I inlove with the idea that I'm inlove with him? Woaahh! san nanggaling un?!(o_O) Basta, sa totoo lang, parang naghihintay pa rin ako... Huhuhu..

I know it's too early to make conclusions. Maybe you, whoever you are, are thinking that I've already cracked my nutcase. Siguro nga.(o_o)

i can't think right. in just a few hours, my world, no, our world turned upside down. everything happened so.. fast. i thought ok na pero.. hindi pa pala. . i.. can't stop my tears from falling. i've been crying since 1? no, 2 n the morning, when it all started. it hurts.. it hurts SO DAMN MUCH.. mahirap ang hindi magalit sa isang taong mahal mo. sobra.

haha, ang corny tlga. halos lahat ng tao sa bahay naiyakan ko na. una syempre, kay vanessa. tapos kanina lang kinausap ako ni auntie zeny, hndi ko napigilan umiyak. nung sinundo kami ni mommy nina ng 3am, napaiyak din ako. bago umalis si mommy, nag-usap kami, naiyak na naman ako. shit, ayoko ng ganito. i feel so helpless..

hindi ako nakapasok ngayon, may exam pa naman ako sa socsci. di bale, hihingi na lang ako ng special exam. alam ko namang maiintindihan ako ni sir jal. hindi naman ako magpapabaya sa pag-aaral, papasok pa rin ako.. pero huwag muna ngayon. useless kung tutulala rin lang ako sa classroom, tsaka mataas yung chance na mababa yung makukuha kong score sa exam kapag ngyon ako nag-take. gusto ko lang magpahinga.. for just one day. dalawang oras lang tulog ko so i deserve rest.

isa pa, ang panget ko ngayon. mugtung-mugto yung mga mata ko. shet, pagtitinginan lang ako ng tao. ayoko nga.

sana maayos ang lahat. hindi, alam kong maaayos din ang lahat. as hard as i try being optimistic, di ko pa rin maiwasan na mag-isip ng mga... di kanais-nais na mangyayari. hay nako. pakiusap nila, wag ako masyadong magpaapekto, sila na bahalang umayos ng problema. alam ko naman eh. pero tama lang na ipaalala nila sakin yun. hindi ko na lang iisipin 'to. kailangang magpakatatag. at alam kong hindi Nya kami pababayaan.

mamaya, uuwi na yung 3 bros ko tska si mommy sa bahay. kailangang mag-resume ang normal life. DAPAT talaga. tapos dalawa pa exams ko ngayong week.. i'll start reviewing again later.

but i have to sleep first..

p.s. may kaakibat yatang malas yung bago naming ref (see post before this). hmpf. sayang, ang ganda pa naman.

Wow. So Blogger really is making their customers use the new Googled-thing version. It's a relief that I didn't mess up the "make-an-account" step. Buti na lang, or else ignoramous ang labas ko. Oh well.

It's already the 11th day of February. When was my last post? On the 7th day of January? I didn't realize na antagal na pala. Tsk tsk. I should be posting more often, updating this silly blog so you people can know what's going on in my silly life. Does anyone actually read this? Heck, I don't care anymore. All I know is that I'm free to type whatever I want in here. This is one of the things that actually keeps me sane.

Lemme see.. Last Wednesday, mom, dad, and I watched the PBA semifinals game in Araneta. Good tickets, we were on the ring side. My first PBA live game. I was very ecstatic kaya naman I didn't let myself wallow in the pits of self pity after the CompaAna Lab exam. At tiniis ko rin na mag-commute from Manila to Ortigas. I rode the LRT/MRT para naman mas mapadali ang buhay ko. It was a very good game.. Mainly because nanalo yung San Miguel Beermen. Alanganin yung score sa una pero after the 1st half, tuluy-tuloy na yung lead ng SMB. I used to watch PBA pero tinamad na ko. I'm a fan again. Napahanga talaga ako ni Danny Seigle and Dondon Hontiveros (and yesterday I watched bits of Game1 between SMB and Ginebra. L.A. Tenorio definitely got my heart). Too bad I didn't have the opportunity to ask the players for their autographs and pictures. Sounds bakya but the hell I care. I like them. After the game, we checked out the restaurants and fastfoods, nakaabot pa kami sa Farmers (I remember, I got lost there. I thought it was Gateway. Stupid of me. Buti na lang sinundo ako ni Jonica) We ended up eating in Cafe Adriatico. Nice place, konti lang yung tao.. the waiters were very nice din. I didn't want to eat talaga kasi super full pa ko pero naisip ko na sayang naman. Dad said we're gonna watch the final game next Sunday. I'll do anything para lang makauwi ng maaga from Aud's party, kill if I have to. No, wait, maybe not. Well, whatever, basta I HAVE to watch. Besides, I want the pictures and autographs. And I want to see the SMB Buddies. Die hard but really fun people.

The whole day of Thursday, I didn't even feel a pang of hunger. Ok, there was slight grumbling in my stomach, but that was about it. Imagine, I ate food that lasted for a day and a half. Ugh. Now I'm feeling FAT again. Whenever nagkakaganito ako, I don't eat for a day para lang hindi ako makonsensya na kumain ulit ng marami. Rawr. I hate this. Hindi naman tlga ako tabain. I'm still slim the last time I checked, which was earlier this day. Pero I haven't stepped on the weighing scale. Tsk. Kapag nadagdagan ako ng 2lbs, I'm going on a diet. Uggghh..

Hhmm. Tapos kanina the three of us went to Festival Mall. We had lunch muna sa Max's then bumili na ng ref sila mommy. Yey, new ref! It's an LG 20 cubic, drawer-type, two-door unit with aluminum handles, LCD temperature display, and chrome/silver finishing. It wasn't really what Mom wanted. Samsung dapat pero dahil magaling yung salesmen, na-convince yung parents ko na LG ung bilhin, the two-door model din pero smaller. Costs 'round 52k++. Syempre, mga 2hours ata kami dun kasi nangungulit pa si Dad and Mom was checking the refs. I still can't believe na sobrang kulit ni Papa. The salesmen were laughing talaga kapag humihirit sya. That's why I love him a lot. Of course, I love my mom, too. I love the both of them SO MUCH. Enough of the cheesy stuff. Wala na raw nung 52k++ unit so in-offer samin ung mas high tech, yung minention ko nung una. Add 12k and you have the price. I'm sure gustong bawiin ni Mommy yung decision na bilhin un kasi the price was quite high. Pero, well, installment naman. They charged it in AmEx. We got a free stand fan and an Oishi Cuckoo bag. Oishi raw is going bankrupt. Sayang naman. Dad wants to preserve the plastic bag para ipakita sa E-aji people. Yey. Aabangan ko talaga yung big bag of E-aji kung sakali.

2am na pala. Mag-aaral pa ko for SocSci2 and NatSci. I have to do 2 reaction papers pa pala. Shit. Piled up work na naman. Kelan kaya ako matututo? Pero honestly, I work better kapag ganito. Ang weird ko talaga.