july 30.....
yesterday, justin went to our house. it was kindda unsual coz it was the first time he went here just to talk to me. wow. we did a lot of catching up coz we both felt that we were..uhm.. slipping from each other's grasp? i dont know how to put it but it's something like that. sabi nya, "lam mo un, kpg ung friend mo.. ung love mo, i mean, kpg nwala sayo.." blah blah blah.. ntouch ako dun! lam mo nmn ako.. softie. parang tissue. hehe.. anyways, aun nga..kht di nya diretsong sinabi, mahalaga pa rin ako sa kanya.. sobrang important.. kaya he spent time with me. huhuhu. knwento nya ung mga nangyri s knila ng nllgwan nya. how unfortunate. kng kelan nwalan n ko ng lablyf (yes, i've thought of it already and i think if jansen and i went back to being friends, things would work out more.. he doesn't have time for me and he's always playing those damned pc games.. i hate it when no one pays attention to me), tsaka sha ngkaroon. hehe. dati pla, nung wla shang luvlyf, ako n pla dapat. huhu. sayang. well.. now i've learned my lesson. i won't rush love and i gotta think before leaping again. tsk. he stayed up to 9:30pm. tagal. haha. pnpakain ko, ayaw kumain. hay, i missed that guy soooo much! ewan ko. ang saya... i missed having him around. ewan. ewan. ewan. na-iyak ako nung gabi kasi sobrang nalungkot ako. mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal ko ang taong un. kaya nung nalungkot sha, nsktan ako nun. ayokong may nananakit s knya.. huhuhu.. ano b yan. sobrang attached ko na sa kanya. ahahahahahahahaha.... hahahahahahahahahaha... T_T ano bang meron si justin at di ko pa rn sha malimutan? basta. iba sha sa lahat. ibang-iba.........
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/31/2005 11:37:00 AM
ang cute nung taga-behsci... hahahah!
hay. ang saya ng araw ko na malungkot. bago ang lahat, birthday pala ni huckie ngyon. blockmate ko. ala lng. dpat 1am ko babtiin kaso nakatulog ako. haha. nabati ko sha around 3:30 or 4am na. anyway, shempre, di ako nage-expect ng isang mgandang araw, although i was hoping n mging ganun nga. what happened sa geo? wla naman. discussion. ang dami ko palang isinulat na notes para sa discussion kanina. haha. tapos sa comm1, tae tlga ung test. may british equivalent chuva pa. di nmn kami brit. huhu. basta ang hirap. puro application lahat. makapagbasa na nga ng dictionary simula bukas.. hhm.. wala pla kming history knina kasi... ewan ko. nanood lng kmi ng video knina. 2 pge reaction. ergh! tapos nung math, walang quiz! yahoong yahoo! practice ata kasi nung dpsm pra sa presentation knina. 3pm dismissed na kami kaya aun, nag-robinsons ako. di ako pumuntang guidance. hahahaha. tinatamad ako eh. next week n lang. hmm... nag-robnsons p ko. nag-arcade kami ni telites sa gbox. ang daming tao! tapos di ko alam kung anong skul un. basta super dami. ang galing ko na sa basketball dun. naka-99 points ako kanina. hahaha! tapos 71 ata or 78 ung last play ko. bibigay ko pa kay gerome ung tickets para ipunin nya. hahaha. astig tlga. ung presentation kanina, lahat ng dep'ts ng cas, nag-perform, students and profs. ang galing! haha. sabog nga lang ung iba pero laftrip. okei rin ung storytime kasi kwela naman ung nag-kwento. ang pindangga ay eel pala sa english. now i know. galing pa sumayaw ni mam len, math17 teacher namin. haha astig. sayang wala si sir jerome, sya pa naman ung hinihintay ko. he's not that kagwapo but there's somethin about him tlga. ay onga pala, nakita ko si coco kanina bago mag-history! ang cute tlga nya... *melt* hehe! tapos nung ppunta n kmi ni tel sa LT, nkita ko si francis-oh-so-good-lookin-totally-hot-hot-hot! ahahaha astig! nagkatinginan nga kami eh. eye contact! ahahahahhahaha! *kilig to the max* ahaha! grabe ang gwapo tlga nya. tapos sa presentation, nakita ko ung cute guy sa behsci! grrrrabe! ahahaha! i was lookin at him almost the whole time nung nsa stage sya. naupo pa siya dun sa may audience pagkatapos nila magperform. block 6 pla sha! hehe.. kelngan ko ng connection dun. hehe! basta ang gwapo nya tlga............ singkit.. maputi.. matangkad.. tapos nung pauwi na, nasa likod ko pa habang naghihintay ng bus sa may faura. hahaha! cute ng boses.. so dreamy! hehe.. pati kay francis! i melt at the sound of their voices. my heart races and my blood rushes. hahaha! ang chuva ko tlga. haha. ano ba. inaaliw ko lang ang sarili ko para sumaya naman ng knti ang buhay ko. para me thrill at kakaibang nangyayari khit minsan. para naman kiligin ulit ako. hahahahaha.. tae. =P cge.. bukas.. bibisita ata si justin sa bahay. nako.. waaah. kelngan umuwi ng maaga. i miss that guy!^^ mrmi p ikwekwento un tska papturo pa sa upcat? haha... cge.. ja ne! =P
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/30/2005 12:10:00 AM
like shit....
fuck this day! i was late for bio lecture (i missed the quiz), totally flunked the bio lab quiz (60 items) and now, i can't do anything to help justin! i think the guy is heartbroken. i wanna do something to help him, like, talk to him. ang pambungad nya sakin knina "nasan ka nung kelngan n kelngan kita?" damn nasaktan ako nun! naiiyak nga ako kanina kasi feeling ko wala akong magawa para tulungan siya. andyan sha lagi pra sakin.. ano ba?! tapos heartbroken p sha s girl n pinakapinagseselosan ko. argh man! ewan ko ba... ayokong may manakit kay justin. ano ba! he's still so special to me......... naiiyak tlga ako. fuck this....
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/28/2005 10:38:00 PM
wacocococo.. hehehehehehehehehe!
i passed the math exam. barely made it. pasang awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! waaahhh! but at least okay na iyon kesa bagsak di ba? shit man. 22 out of 39 sa block namin ang bagsak. can you believe it?! nung nag-mass kninang umaga (our geology teacher said we should attend mass first), sobrang pinagdasal ko na pumasa ako.. or khit bigyan ako ni Lord ng lakas ng loob n tanggapin young score ko. awww! the power of prayer! huhuhu........ 12:30 p pla pasok ko.. wlang p.e. eh. nstp lng. uwi p ko ng makati tpos magbibihis. hay.. pumunta nga pla ako ng skul knina kasi bday ni vanessa. binigay ko ung gift ko tsaka sumabay sa service. gagabihin n kasi msydo kpg umuwi p ko ng mkti. nkita ko si eula.. she's so pretty na! tsaka si mam celine na sobrang miss ko! pati sina ernest, stef, audrey, michelle, cristeta, etc... i miss them all! pati si sherard at kensa at israel! hehe... popular pa rin pla ako sa skul. haha.. wow.. ^_^ sana maging mgnda ang arw ko bukas.. wiiiii........ cococococo... wahahahahahhahahahhahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/26/2005 10:53:00 PM
the perfect way to end the day is to have someone ruin it for you...
hay buhay.. madaling araw na at gising pa ako. kauuwi ko lang kaning mga 12am. galing ako sa bahay ng lola ko. errr... actually kasama ko yung buong family ko knina sa atc kc ngpapicture kami......... family time! uuwi na kasi si papa sa tuesday ng umaga, saktong birthday pa naman ni vanessa un. hehe. ibibili ko pa nga siya ng regalo para sa bday nya. onga pala, nung saturday lang ako nakauwi dito sa muntinlupa (july 23). nagyaya kasi si choerleen, bday nya last july 20. complete na sana ang genio forces, wala lang si michelle. ewan ko ba kung ano na nangyyri dun, tinawagan pa man din namin. napapabarkada raw eh?! kasi nung nakasama na namin si gelik, kwento nya na nagseselos ng todo si joshua kasi knkwento ni michelle ung nanliligaw sa kaniya at iba pang pagga-galang ginagawa niya. hay nako! ah.. tapos shempre, the typical way to end a perfect day is to have someone ruin it for you. kasi nung around 7 or 8, dumaan ako knila jemah kasi bday nya nung 24. kala ko walang tao yun pala nasa kwarto ni jemah lahat. andun sina mamai, diane, michelle n cristeta (3rd yr n kservice), kaye, athena, pamz, franz, chiara... sila lang ata if my memory serves me right. ang kulit! haha.. namiss ko na nga sila eh! kung anu ano pngkwentuhan and nung paalis na sila, i hugged diane and mamai! miss ko na silaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! nung pinakain n ko ni jemah (vanessa at ako n lng natira), napagkwentuhan namin ung lovelife ko. sabi ni jemah, ayaw niya si jansen para sa akin. sabi rin ni vanessa na kay francis at coco n lang ako. haha! ayiiihhhiiiiiiiii......... *kilig* hehe! aun.. sabi ni jem, ayaw niya si jansen pra sa akin. si dadeh jodee, vanessa, at jonica, ganun din ang sabi.. habang naglalakad kami ni vanessa pauwi (walang tricycle...), sinermonan ako at sabi na kung mahal tlga ako ni jansen, gagawa yan ng paraan para magkita kami or magkasama kahit minsan..tska kng mahal nya ako, kht nakakahiya or sobrang mushy, ggwin nya para sa akin.. huhuhu. tapos nung nakauwi na kami, ngchat ako at sinabi kay jansen ung problem ko s knya... ba, biglang nag-away at ang nsa away message ay "ngllro ako ng gb, mmya mo n lng ako kausapin" argh!!! uminit ulo ko dun at sabi ko s knya, "i wonder what happened to your priorities. cge mglro ka tutal jan k nmn msya. top 3 priority mo naman yan di ba" yada yada yada... ggrrrr...... ayaw pala makipag-usap ah! tae... im so disappointed with him! i mean, he was supposed to listen di ba? but no! he chose to play. grrr.....
oo.. di ko marmdmn n mahal nya ako. am i asking too much? di naman cguro. sobrang miss ko lang siya, un lang. nagtatampo ako. ang tagal na naming di nagkikita at sa ilang beses kong pag-uwi sa muntinlupa, iisang beses pa lang kami nagkita. at... sa tingin ko di pa un matutuloy kung di pa ako dumating ng maaga sa munsci. maglalaro kasi siya eh! tsaka... tinanong ko dati kung may ggwin sha ng saturday, sabi nya meron, magllro sya. fuck, man! nagtmpo ako nun pero di ko sinabi, sinubukan ko n lng intindihin. pero... di ko n tlga kaya eh. pkrmdam ko, im being taken for granted. ayoko ng sinasabihan lng ng "iloveyou" kasi kht sno kayang sabihin un sa akn.. couldnt he at least SHOW it??? am i asking too much???????? di pa siya ngttnong kng kelan ako uuwi.. walang effort. i dont feel important to him tuloy. i cant help but compare. bkt si justin, nggwang mgtanong kng kelan ako uuwi? masaya pa kasi uuwi ako.. pnppnta p ko ng festi kc miss n nya ako.. huhu.. naiiyak n nman ako.. dumaan si justin s festi tpos kinurot ako s pisngi, sabi nya "miss na kita." huhuhu.. nkktouch! kya siguro sobrang hirap malimutan ni justin. im still so attached to him.. huhu. forever n shang may special place sa puso ko..^^ eto pa.. sabi ni vanessa, bkt di mgwang ipakita ni jansen n mahal nya ako kht sa maliliit n bagay lng? tulad ng pgbbgay ng letter.. pgtwag sakin.. ung tipong kht corny, ggwin kc mssyahan ako. hay buhay............ ewan ko. gusto ko sana siyng kausapin kht sa personal para magkaalaman na. ayoko sa chat. pangit. para sa mga di seryosong bagay ang chat... hehe...
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/25/2005 12:49:00 AM
brain drained but still happy..
my brain is soooo drained! we had our first departmental exam in math17 and it was like..... argh! i felt my brain being squeezed and all that. haha! our history test was okay. i think i got most of the items.. but i dont want to be super confident so i'll just leave it to that. i might get disappointed. anyway, haha. my days in up are getting more and more and moreee bright! i've been seeing francis and coco more often! ahihi! tapos nakatabi ko pa sa p.e. si coco nung july 20, 2005. wow. memorize... haha! tpos knina sa library, ngpunta kmi ni char pra mag-aral ng math and history. nsa reserve section sila tet and others so andun kmi s main room. dumating cla coco, miguel, alek, mairre, etc. eh wla n available seat sa table ng block one so sa amin umupo c coco at alek. kulit ni alek! haha.. kinikilig si char. eh.. ako rin! haha.. pero di alam ni alek un. haha. grabe ang gwapo ni coco sa malapitan!!! =D ahahaha.......................................... tapos nung pnglawang punta ko sa lib, ang daming tao.. andun si francis!!! ahaha!!! nksalubong ko p s door tpos.. ahahaha!!! ang gwapo nya tlga....sobra! nakiupo ako knila huckie, gerome, noel, at brian kc wla n seat tpos laughtrip! ang kulit nila. haha. adik sa venn diagram at problem solving. hahaha! ang saya tlga.. si ace nga kinikilig ata kasi andun si francis. wooohh!!!!!!! francis! hahaha..... ang gwapo...... pero mas nababaitan ako kay cocococoooooo!!!!! hehe..
alam ko paulit ulit ang mga sinasabi ko. sa totoo lang, kaya ako nagkakaganito ay dahil sa isang tao. hindi ko alam kung ano na ba talaga. siguro dahil sobrang miss ko na siya, matagal na kaming di nagkikita at nagkakausap, at kanina sa chat di man lang ako ni-pm, inuna pa ang laro. masama siguro ang loob ko kaya eto... sa iba na-shift ang attention. hay buhay. ayokong kaawaan. basta. ang gulo. ang labo.
uuwi na pala dad ko sa monday ata. last friday sha nakarating dito ulit sa bansa. ang saya! hehe.. miss ko na dad ko! kya uuwi ako bukas, punta muna festival kasi bday ni choerleen nung july 20. swerte si choerleen. haha!
nag-eenjoy pala ako sa block ko ngyon.. ahaha... astig. wala pa akong nababagsak na exam. feeling ko math ang una. tae.. bsta may coco at francis, okei na! hahaha..
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/22/2005 10:24:00 PM
M.A.R.O.O.NS! Fighting Maroons!!!
U-nibersidad ng Pilipinas (8x)
Matatapang, matatalino
Walang takot kahit kanino
Hinding hindi magpapahuli
Ganyan kaming mga taga-UP
U-nibersidad ng Pilipinas (4x)
U!
Fighting Maroons! M-A-R-O O-NS, Fighting Maroons!
Let's.. Go... Fight... Let's go Fight!
whooo!!!! this day is one of the best ever! UP fighting maroons won the first game versus UST! Cool! This was my first UAAP live game and our team won!!! I'm so overwhelmed actually and i don't care that my throat hurts from all the screamin and cheerin that i did together with my classmates!!! Noel and Joanne fetched me at staircase 413. OT kasi ako, di ko mhnp ung dpt n ksma ko sa upper box a. sabi nila, sayang ung 100 pero woth it kasi nakasama ko sila! BaSTA it was so astig! the drum and cheer wars, the cute cute cute guys, the uniforms.. cool! hehe.. last two minutes nga, 65-66 ang score pero nagthree pts ung UP so 68-66. tpos finoul ung isang player.. nging 69-66. whoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! ang saya ! i wanna watch future games nga eh!
I'm getting more and more hooked in basketball!!!
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/09/2005 08:55:00 PM
i feel bad...
man, my posting is becoming scarcer and scarcer. waaahh!!! i'm sorry my beloved blueberry cheesecake blog... school's eating up my time. no, actually it's gobbling my time! haha.. tomorrow, my bestfriend jonica will be celebrating her brthday. i feel bad coz i wont be able to go to festival!!! huhu... darn uaap game...i just hope they'd have fun and all na lang. and i wish mgnda rin araw ko bukas. i still dont know what to wear! haha... im feelin sleepy na.. updates tomorrow!
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/08/2005 11:19:00 PM
cute cute cute.. hahaha
heeeyyyyy! zup y'all? hehe.. ala lang. today i woke up at 6:30, ate breakfast.. and heated water. it was raining and i thought, "magagamit ko ulit jacket ko. hahaha!" dunno. i just like wearing my jackets. aside from the protection they give me (i have two jackets.. haha), i feel so comfy and warm and snuggly.. and cute! yeah. hehe. i know it sounds silly but admit it. girls in jackets look cute. haha. anyway, we only had three classes today 'coz our math17 teacher attended a two-day seminar entitled "popularizing the law." i dont know what the heck it was for but we were thankful for that. haha. yesterday, we only had one class! anyway... as soon as i walked inside our campus, i doned the hood of my jacket and went towards my blockmates. i saw them looking at me. i guess they were wonderin' who i was. hhmm.. i smiled at them and when i looked around, i saw a couple of cute guys near the building's doors. i looked for a seat beside my other blockmates' table. i put my stuff on the table and when i looked up, i saw this cute guy lookin' at me. weee!!! hehehe! i was guessing if he's from the higher years when i remembered our math17 assignment. actually, that assignment was easy but i still had to compare it to my friends's answers coz im sure may mali ako dun. haha. 8:30, we went to room 303. may gagamit pala ng room so we headed to 104 ata. oh yeah, may nkita pla akong cute dun na singkitin! hehehe! ay eto pa!!!! nung papunta na kami sa 104, guess kung cno nakasalubong namin! hahaha! shempre.. si francis! aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh! grabe! ace talked to him for a sec... and hahaha! ang cute nya tlga! i couldn't help but stare at him! his eyes are so cute... his nose... his shiny hair... his cute smile! perfect! hahaha... grabe grabe grabe! di ko napigil ang ngiti ko.. hahaha! teka nga tama na. haha ang disloyal ko. hehe. well, my eyes arent loyal but my heart is. yiii! hehe! tama na.. haha.. classes were... normal as usual. ay.. nung lunch namn, kasi wla akong payong so dapat kashare ko si joan. nag-offer si huckie ng payong. nakakahiya nga pero tinanggap ko na rin. tapos he held the umbrella for me. such a sweet guy! tapos sbi nila dpt ako raw maghawak ng payong kasi mas matangkad ako. ako nghawak nung payong tpos sabi ni huckie, "mommy kita! haha. tapos su tet, lola... oi gerome, mommy ko to!" kapal amf. haha. ang bait nun tlga.. he is unlike the other rich guys na sobrang mahangin. totally a gentleman! rare na ang tulad nya. haha. onga pala.. naisip ko lng habang nagco-comm I kmi.. bigay n bigay n tlga si sir. hehe. tska nung history I.. ang cute pla tlga ni sir jerome. hekhekhek. ano b yan! puro cute cute cute ang nababanggit ko dito. naman oh.. hehe.
ang lakas ng ulan knina. wla akong payong. hay.. pero okei lang. masarap naman maglakad sa ulan habang naka-jacket. haha! nako may pasok pa bukas.. p.e. at nstp.. erg! ciao!
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/05/2005 10:36:00 PM
confused...
I don't know what's happening to me lately but... I've been getting more and more confused. I feel frustrated with myself. So much, in fact. Why am I feeling this way? Everything seems so.. wrong. I hate to admit it but I'm being pulled back to the past. Up to now I can't forget the sad events... and the happy ones. What's happening to me??? I thought I'm completely over him and I've found someone new. Why is it all coming back again? I hope my mind gets cleared up fast. I hope this is just an effect of sleeping late... I hope.
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/04/2005 12:17:00 AM
tsk tsk..
another week has passed by and i still feel quite unhappy. it's been two weeks already since i last saw jansen. i miss him terribly!!! -_- last friday, i went to the library with my auntie olive, auntie zeny, mommy nina, mommy, and tita fern. no, it's not the library library. we actually went to a comedy bar/sing along bar/ restaurant, where gay people perform. i tell you guys, they were great!!! their voices were really fantastic. uhm, there is a catch though. you have to be open-minded and sure that green jokes do not offend you. it's a place where people are equal and no one cares about your status in the society. ookrayin ka nila talaga! the hosts did give out those reminders. the performers were really hilarious and they got huge tips! hahaha! i specially liked poca and james. their voices really stood out! uhm.. si james, he looks like a girl tlga but if you'd look at him closely, may ichura sha. haha. then this artist lara morena came. i looked at her and she looked back and smiled. she's really pretty! hihi. while the performers were singing, i wasn't able to help myself to think of jansen. i even imagined what his reactions would have been if he were with us. T_T we left the place at around 2am, dropped off my aunts, then mom and i reached home at around 3am. morning came and i went to the dentist to have my braces adjusted. tita aileen flew back to the usa pla ulit. i wonder how choerl's doin. i headed to festival, disobeyin what my mom siad. haha. i couldn't help it eh! my feet craved for ddr and my hands wanted some basketball action! when i got there, marvin was the only munscian there. we played for a while and trix joined us. he isn't a munscian.. just a ddr friend. dad jodee arrived with salve at around 1:30. then jonica came! weeee!!!!!!!!! i missed her! and dadeh jodee and salve and edher and aleli! i miss pascal!!! i miss munsci!!! we played for.. 5 hours? ddr is so fun! 6pm, i saw penpen and audrey! i immediately hugged penpen!!! i missed missed missed missed her!!! she gained some pounds but she's still my pretty pretty daughter! hihi. today, i went to atc with my family and we had our picture taken. mom said she wanted to send our picture to our dad in vietnam. ang cute namin! hehe. up to now, i still feel full coz i ate psta and then a pizza slice for merienda. haha. sabi kasi sa healthway, mag-pataba ako! hehehe!!! i need veggies and vitamins and others.. malnourished ako. hihi. bukas 10-1 lang pasok namin. wiii!!!!!!!
blueberry had a little lamb last 7/03/2005 10:18:00 PM
