hello, it's me again. sorry for not writing sooner. i know that kashi spends more time here (rather than in her blog hehe) than me but it's not that i'm neglecting you. believe me, i think of you everyday.. i just don't have the time and energy to type my adventures. school work has already flooded in. i implore you to understand that i still have two exams on saturday and probably three more on monday.. so please kill me now! but see? though my sked's hectic, i'm trying my best to update.. that's how much i value you.

-------haha. alright. cut the drama. wala na akong maisip. nababaliw na ko. haha. 11:21 pm na, kelngan ko na mag-aral sa math100 at chem31!! waaahhh!! may the heavens have mercy on my soul. -_-

p.s. "you're gay for not liking me." sabi ni.. hehe wala lang.^^

finally, the biogyugan performance. thanks to abi for the upload!
yan, that's the result of our hard work, dedication, and passion. naks.^_^

though i was kindda disappointed that we landed second, still, the audience's amazement with our performance topped it all off. i felt satisfied knowing that we gave them something very unique and worthy of remembering.

thank you for putting up with my long texts
thank you for going to the practices (kahit bumabagyo)
thank you for your patience (kht ang demanding ko na)
thank you for the support
thank you for helping with the props (carrying and keeping 'em in ur condos)
thank you guys!

you all are the best! i'm looking forward to our next biogyugan. i know that next year it'll be bigger, crazier and more fun! nxt yr, we'll definitely rock it harder!^_^

p.s.
mayi: "manalo, matalo, masaya naman si vika!"
wagi ang moments sa lt!! hahaha!! =P

despite this super mind-boggling, earth-affecting mystery, i generally had a very good day..
-- the bio alumni forum was enjoyable (we were making some props pieces while the forum was ongoing. haha)
--math was fun
--someone greeted me (and made me float on cloud 9)
--he greeted me, all smiles. we had small talks....

omg! small talks?! while we were at mcdo, kashi (yehey special mention ka ulit! =P) said that maybe he was trying to chat me up and stuff.. so i better be more responsive to him. if that's the case, fine, i'll be more attentive. too bad i have to hold off my kalokohan, baka raw kasi ma-shock sya. then kashi explained our "timeline" because i almost wrecked the styro (while eating the spag). waah.

anyway, this is crazy. brain automatically goes on into theorizing-stalking mode whenever something comes up. waah. shungaw ka tlga brain. but good thing with you is that the theories are almost correct. maybe one day you'd be able to completely unravel how guys think. haha.

time to hit the sheets. early day tomorrow. save me from all the haggardness!(--___--)

(almost) everything about yesterday was SO WRONG:
HEAVY traffic all day
STRONG rain
alternate jeepney route to only God-knew-where
OVER YUCKY ROACHES (crawled on my pants up to my knees)
SCREAMING like hell (yeah, on the street)
FLOOD...FLOOD...and more FLOOD


Cursed Vito Cruz street. Took a bath in alcohol. Funnily and painfully embarrassing.
It was the experience of a lifetime. Ugh.

So I watched Honey and Clover earlier to de-stress. To forget yesterday. Everytime I watch HaC, I gain a lot of insights on Friendship. Love. Life. and Dreams.

But Miwako said something that hit me right in the face:
"Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because their feelings of wanting to see you escape from their bodies and enter your dreams?"
No matter how coincidental the episode, character, and timing were.. It was just too much! (-_-)


Why the rant?? My dreams last night were Weirder than usual. Must've been due to stress. But then that part came:
We sat down, facing each other. He apologized.. And suddenly Started talking about us. Asked if I was avoiding him.
He pulled me to sit beside him. Then put his arm around my shoulder.


When I woke up, I was seriously disturbed. I mean, What the heck?! He doesn't have the right to appear in my dreams. And there is no "us."


People say that our subconscious (and even conscious) desires manifest in our dreams. And to think that I even tried "pulling" him out of my system before I fell asleep.


I was seriously pissed off yesterday. But hell yeah, that dream is exactly what I want to happen. DAMN. (-_-)

p.s. huckie's fan girls are definitely going to kill me now. monday, we wore the same shirt color.. and they saw us getting in on his car. and we disappeared for two hours. roadtrip! i screwed the directions up going back to upmanila. i thought huckie would get mad but he didn't. tho it was embarrassing, i had fun.^_^

taking a break from studying (though it's 1am already and im supposed to be sleeping not taking a break)

still highly disappointed with ust. aaron and i went to watch it yesterday at cuneta astrodome. game started with a very very close fight. then things got heated. referees always called on the ateneans kahit wala naman. the ball always went to ust. game fixing or what? ewan. all i know is that i cheered harder for ateneo. what really got me irked was when this ust player, after getting penaltied, suddenly hit reyes (admu) square in the chest! hindi tinawagan ng ref. it was so fucking DISAPPOINTING.

and the halftime atenean cheer, which was intentionally extended to 8minutes, pissed off the ust crowd and their director. it was like a slap in the face. you guys should have seen kung paano sumugod ung director nila. and the ending was the best. a total classic. during the ending, ust didn't give the same respect that ateneo gave when the hymn was playing. doesn't reflect being well-educated. made me glad that i didn't go to ust kng gnyan lang din pala ugali nila.

on the other hand, impressive naman ang three point shots ng ust. i like mirza and cruz. galing. admu, i like reyes (aaron's classmate in management. he's cute!) and long.

i'm glad that aaron invited me to watch. probably my most memorable uaap game yet. u might think i'm biased and eveything. depends on which side of the fence you are on. hhmm.. each had its faults naman pero basta ako, i was able to watch everything. despite the pagiging pikon of the blue eagles, ateneo pa rin. kahit natalo, ateneo pa rin. after learning their cheers, i also joined in during the school hymn. i think i already have the blue blood...

now i want an ateneo shirt! hehe.

p.s. no flames or whatsoevers. =P

yes, yes i know it's been ages since i last typed an entry. i actually attempted to post something last week. unfortunately, i was kindda out of inspiration. but it seems that the tide is starting to change. i'm finally, again, seeing the world in a much colorful way. naks, may nalalaman na 'kong ganyan ngyon! hehe. wala lang, gusto ko lang talaga ibalita na after two years eh may crush na ulit ako. yehey! pero syempre hindi ko sasabihin kung sino.=P

you might think that me having a crush would lead to suicide (a.k.a. LOVE). of course not.. just this wednesday, i talked to renz (my sis' close friend) and found myself saying, "gusto ko sure na kapag na-inlove ako sa susunod.. at kapag pumasok ako sa isang relationship, gusto ko rin na mas matagal na." mature na 'ko. hehe! cheesy kung cheesy, honest-to-goodness lang ako sumagot ng mga tanong, lalo na kapag 'yan ang pinag-uusapan. aren't you glad that there are people like me? no denials, pare. haha. anyway, my point is i'm treading this familiar path more carefully now because i don''t want to get myself caught in the bushes and brambles. i've learned a lot from everything that happened in the past. besides, i still don't know much about him, except that he's cute, has a nice built (oh ayan ha, walang halong pagnanasa!), kind, religious and hella smart! yes, he has some of my ideal guy's traits so.. i need to solidify my game plan pa. haha! pero ayun nga, everything's still uncertain kaya steady lang. mahirap din pala i-give up ang trono ko sa "nirvana." you know what nirvana is?? it's the singles' peaceful place. heaven, pare! haha. kidding aside, i very much enjoy being single but let's see if this is going to surpass my nirvana-ish happiness.^_^

uhm, im also busy with studying. yes, you read that right, studying! i'm having a heck of a time with invertebrate zoology! jan pechinik is the deity for now. haha.^_^ sadly, i can't say the same for plant morpho-ana (though i enjoy the lab class!). i can't fully appreciate the parenchymas and collenchymas, the xylems, phloems, sieve cells. they all look the same eh! well, almost. hehe. and uhm, organic chem. sh*t. every time i say "org chem," my mouth tastes bitter. damn that subject. it's the largest cross that i'm bearing as of now. next is math. haha. actually, i'm enjoying the classes because of the professors. they're great, really. maasikaso, mabait, magaling magturo.. (gwapo pa. haha!) mahirap lang tlga yung subjects nila.^^ pero syempre, no match pa rin sila kay sir jal. iba pa rin tlga kapag siya ang nakikita ko. wootttt! grabe! super happy happy happy ko kaya kapag nagha-hi rin sya kapag binabati ko! (nare-recognize na nya siguro ako. magpapirma ba naman ng cd sa last day.. madalas ko rin syang makita. hehe) nakaka-miss tuloy ng sobra yung socsci2. though medyo marami syang absent, na-appreciate ko ng husto yun dahil sa kanya. he's the reason kung bakit ang sipag ko pumasok ng m/th last sem. i always looked forward to listening and learning from him. and do you know what makes sir jal really intelligent for me? it's simply because he's able to relay the lessons to his students while making them appreciate the subject for what it is. sir jal actually made me realize that it's possible to learn while having fun. galing, noh?^_^

what else? i think we're going to be a lot busier because of the upcoming bioyugyugan. syempre, props ulit ako. dance? no way pare, magkamatayan na. haha! anyways, that's it i guess. i'll probably update next week.^_^

p.s. i finally finally finally got my hands on his email address! woohhhhh... thanks to jeyem.^_^ *does analysis* ---adik. hehe. yes, he has a friendster account. and yes, tama yung hinala ko na sa kanya nga yung unang-una na lumabas the first time i searched for him.
to kashi: tao sya kashi, tao! hehe.^_^

p.s.2. alam nyo ba na nakakadagdag- swerte kapag ang kulay ng shirt for the day mo eh ka-kulay ng unang jeep na masasakyan nyo? hahahaha!

p.s.3. hobby ko na talaga ang mag-stalk, lalo na kay sir. hehe!