i am worried about my comm2 homework. i hope everythin'll go fine tomorrow. pffff..... but despite the fact that i am kindda goin' looney over that, i am still very harry, err, happy! hehehe. i watched HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE yesterday, two times! atc first with friends, then festival with mom and sibs. ahahaha! of the four movies, GOB took my breath away! the effects were really spectacular! though lots of scenes from the book were cut and that some scenes were bitin, still it's a great movie! emma, aka hermione, is so beautiful now! nakakatibo! hehe jk. loved her during the yule ball scene! and fred and george weasley are so cute rin! well i didn't only ogle the cast noh. i loved the quidditch scene! and... the scene in the prefects' bathroom! ngyon ko lng na-realize na daniel radcliffe has a hot bod! it took all of my will power to not drool and scream and faint when i was watching! ehehehehehe!!! more crazy stuff later. gotta sleep now. hahahahahahaha!
p.s. harry potter 4 and daniel radcliffe aren't the only things that are making me happy :)

since lagalag ako kanina at hindi pumasok sa supposed to be class ko, which was zoology, sumama na ako kay lea sa ocs at tinulungan siyang ayusin ang paper works. late reg din kasi siya eh. pakiramdam ko mauuna pa ako sa kanila matapos. ihahanda ko na ang sarili ko. hay.. nasa CAS lobby kami at doon, humingi ako ng form para sa blood donation. yes, that's right. BLOOD DONATION. i was feeling blue and i had nothing to do. donating some of my RBCs won't be bad. it's for a good cause.. and naisip ko na isang step 'yun para makabalik ako sa dating ako. basta. may meaning yun para sakin. lea and i filled out the form. i was the first one to undergo the screening and the doctor asked questions which i found funny. haha. he was very insistent on the questions regarding the use of drugs and alcohol. i looked him straight in the eyes and told him "NO! i dont use drugs! hahaha!" i was laughing when he asked so i had to look straight to convince him. OF COURSE I DONT REALLY USE DRUGS. IM NOT ALLOWED TO DRINK AND SMOKE. after the physical examination, he pricked my left ring finger and got some blood. he dropped the blood into a blue liquid.. pantimbang pala ng dugo! hehe. cool. tapos nun, i laid down on one of the stretchers and the person who attended to me was vry kind. i felt comfy though nervous. i know that the needle going to be used was big and it would hurt.. i recalled that sa physical check up namin sa healthwaay, required ang blood sample. it was like that, only 450 cc of blood will be taken. the moment came and i saw the needle. i simply closed my eyes and flinched. it really stung.. so to keep my mind from the" discomfort" (of hving a needle stuck in your arm and blood is continuously flowing), i txted some people and played with the yellow squishy ball that the attendant gave. my blockmates, after being dismissed, saw me and were quite horrified. heehee. they were joking and i was laughing. akala mo nga parang wala lang. sabi rin nung isang attendant, magdonate na sila., di naman daw masakit, "tingnan nyo siya, nakatawa lng. ngttxt pa." hahaha. oh well. being somewhat morbid really helps. char, tet, and jo waited for me and lea to finish. lea was the last one to donate blood (36th. i was 35th). i felt kindda lightheaded pero kinaya ko naman. nanlamig nga lang ako.. nung nasa taft na at nghhntay ng msskyan, namumutla raw ako sabi ni tet. naramdaman ko rin kasi nanghihina ako. ang bait ko tlga. hehe. pagkauwi ko, mejo nagdrama na ako at natulog na lang. di nga ako kumain kasi wala akong gana... yan lang ang tanging nakapagpasaya sa akin ngyong araw. ay, meron pa pala. si..wala lng. hehe. bsta.
hay.. nakakapagod na mabuhay..
oh di ba ang bait ko tlga.
I AM SUCH AN ANGEL. >=P

awww fuck. i was in the middle of typing an entry when the computer suddenly died. see..? shit really happens. and im drowning in it. i still cannot accept what happened to me. the dpsm gave me the wrong slip and now i have to re-enrol and cancel my chem and bio subjects. real shit, huh? it's such a hassle! and ayaw pa akong pagbigyan ng prof ko. kinausap ko na nga pero ayaw pa rin. kasalanan ko ba ang nangyari? nakakalungkot. pano ko to sasabihin sa mga magulang ko? unang beses kong magkaganito. ang hirap talaga tanggapin. natatakot pa akong sabhin ito.. ayokong madisappoint parents ko. ang sakit para sakin. sobra. nakalulungkot. nakakainis. nakakaasar. nakapanghihinayang.hindi na nga ako nagreklamo sa prof ko. di naman makikinig un. sayang tlga. konti n lng ayaw pang ibigay. kung tutuusin nga ako na ang pinakamalapit eh. pakiramdam ko may galit yun sakin. bsta. disappointed ako sa sarili ko. nagagalit rin ako sa sarili ko. nakakaiyak. paano na 'to.. sana maintindihan ako ng mga magulang ko. alam naman nila na problemado na ako dun dati pa.. sana ln tlga. baka nga isang salita p lng masabi ko sa mom ko, maiyak na ako kagad at di ko na matapos ang lahat. kapag nga iniisip ko pa lang, naluluha na ako. pano pa kaya kapag nagkaharap kami? hay.. ang hirap ng gnito. nagsisikap akong maging ideal na anak. so far nasunod ko na ang lahat ng gusto nila.. tapos nangyari pa ito. unang beses pa lang naman eh.. pagbubutihan ko talaga sa susunod. babawi ako... hay buhay... ang malas. naisip ko nga na pinabayaan na Niya ako. alam kong maling isipin 'yan, pero di ko naiwasan. ngayon, nalinawan na ako.. at naalala ko na ang mga pagsubok ay paraan Niya para matuto ang tao at maging mas matatag. dito Niya rin masusukat kung gaano katibay ang faith ng tao. dapat hindi ko isipin na pinabayaan Niya ako at ang pamilya ko. dad's prob with his boss is okay now. that's a big relief. haayyy... i can't help but sigh. this is all so so soooooo SAD. bahala na.

i am finally officially enrolled! argh!!!!!! i can't believe how hard it is to enroll! it sucks, you know?! you know?! you know?! what happened to me:

1. i went to school at 8am, with my mom, only to find out that our course's enrollment time was at 2pm! (i got only an hour and a half of sleep coz i was still awake by 2:30 am, doing my sister's homework, and at 4am, my dad, mom, and i got up coz dad's flying back to vietnam, so sad.. )

2. when it was my turn already, the volunteers for the enrollment didn't find my name on the list of qualified enrollees. i had to run down to the OCS and confirm that i was on the list.. (that gave me one hell of a heart attack. i was on the brink of crying. yes, my eyes easily well up)

3. i waited 30 minutes for my temporary form 5.. and an hour to get the real form 5! argh! (so to pass the time away, i chatted with my blockmates, texted, and.. read the comments that my Comm. I prof, Sir Rex Paras, wrote on my final exam booklet. they kindda hurt my pride. haha. do i really have a problem with articles? tell me! i was panicked during the final exam. he didn't give us exercises on writing precis, outlining, and paraphrasing. okei, he did but it was only ONE. now i am having doubts with my english. huhuhu. am i that bad?)

4. it took me around 10 minutes to find my red folder in the biology department, 5 minutes to actually know what to do AFTER BEING RUDELY IGNORED, half a minute to return it, another 5 in finding it AGAIN, 10 minutes to have my form 5 signed by the adviser, and a minute to relay NICELY to the others what to do with the folder. (it took all of my will power NOT to say something nasty to the person who ignored me. he is my blockmate afterall. tsk! oh. i am such an angel. i didn't ignore those who had asked, unlike him. ugh. do not do unto others what you dont want others to do unto you. one day i will slap that rule onto his face! darn. about the folder.. i didnt know that it was supposed to be shown to the adviser so i put it back after updating my grade. tsk.)

5. the cashier was already closed when my friend and i got there to pay. can you believe it?! (the last step! and we didn't make it! uggghhhhh! it's understandable coz it was already 4pm when we got there and there were still lots of students lining up to pay. lucky them. but i got pissed off. sooo... i just wrote the amount and the endorsement on the check, my mom didn't want me walking around, carrying a large amount of money though i think she doesn't quite trust me with matters involving cash. hahaha!!!)

math17 gave me a heart attack, too. huhu. my last hurdle. *sniff* i hope i get past that. huhuhu. i dont want to disappoint my parents. sigh...

but good things also happened to me yesterday. i saw that beh.sci guy. and my former crush from.. (i am sooooo not going to mention what course he is from) some course. i still get that kick when i see him. haha.

today, i was able to pay my tuition fee. poor brian! he got in trouble with the check coz there was an erasure; gerome and noel were teasing me, magkakaproblema rin daw. haha! everything went SMOOTHLY. tet, char, kath, joanne, and i went to sm manila at 'round 10. nakakasawa na kasi sa robinsons and since it was still early, we went there. new environment. haha. we checked out every floor and almost every boutique. my feet are soooooo tired! while we were checking out the stores, i was texting my mom about the school supplies and new clothes. mom's quite hard to talk to when it comes to my clothes.. but i managed to melt her down! wahahahaha!!! my aunt and i met up at 5pm. we then bought my school supplies and she went shopping with me! heehee. cool! we spent, i think, an hour or more at cinderella. they were on sale! whoopee! i bought 7 shirts and pants for... a thousand pesos? im not sure with the amount. :) 3-day sales is one of the greatest things man has ever thought of (i am quite sure about my grammar there.. im considering "sales" as a whole)! then we went to the department store for my step-ins. i want to feel more relaxed this sem.. don't want to wear rubber shoes anymore. i'm so glad auntie put up with me. hehe..

tomorrow is orientation day, i think. classes are from 8:30 up tp 5:30. STRAIGHT. NO BREAKS. NO EATING TIME. NADA. can you believe the sched they gave?!?!?! the admin is soooooo mean!!! like, do they even know that stomachs exist? you know, for EATING?! i can't last a day without food! huhu... i am sure i'll faint from hungriness. on the otherhand, when i think about it, i'll be able to save my lunch money! YES, I HAVE DECIDED TO BECOME THRIFTY. that doesn't sound right, does it? am i going crazy or what? hahaha! i've come to realize that i spend A LOT. of my parents' money. haha. i don't have a job yet, no income.. time to save money. hey, if i can be nice to rude people, then i'll be able to save money, too, right? haha. will power! that's what i need. besides, Christmas is coming and i need MONEY to BUY GIFTS. goodluck to me! hahaha!

i am considering on shifting to behavioral science. i want to talk to my friends and, of course, to my parents about it. if i won't be able to keep up with the demands of the course (our school expects highly from us, especially from the bio studs. pre-med, ya know..), then i'll be shifting to behavioral science. you see, i found out that i'm more interested in the human mind, rather than the body. teehee. the mind.. the way people act.. their driving force.. i find them very mysterious.. my curiosity is ticked off by them. there's so much to learn about the mind! it's like venturing into another planet, you don't know what's in there unless you explore it. aaahhhh! i'll think about it carefully.

that does it. feels good to blog. blog. blog. i'll be trimming down my internet hours. sob. computer, don't get jealous of school, i still love you a lot. hehe. my so-called affair with the pc and internet. haha. time to sleep. ciao! wish me good luck. God bless to me! =)

p.s. i am such an angel. harharhar! >:)

went to shopwise with mom and dad.. guess what? i saw a really cute guy! he's chinese and.. ang ganda ng legs! hahaha.. naka shorts kasi.. and polo. he pulled the sleeves up. basta. cool! grabeeeeee... nawala sa paningin ko.. mya mya nakasalubong ko. kaso nahiya ako tska ay katext ako nun eh hehe. nung nsa cereals section n kami, nasa likod ko pala! matunaw-tunaw na ako kanina wahahaha! he was with his dad and sister.. ata. i'm not really sure.. ah basta! haha.... HE'S GORGEOUS! i've never seen anyone like him.. parang galing sa koreanovela. looked like Choi Woo Hyuk, the teenage johnny woo from endless love autumn in my heart! grabeh! bumabalik na naman.. hehehe...
well, about the grocery.. i sneaked in a couple of oreos and cadbury. wiii! it was..tentenenen.. 8000 pesos plus plus! i didn't expect it to reach 8k coz.. i dunno.. -_- i expected it to be 5k only. the heck. x_X
dad'll be leaving tomorrow.. and my enrolment is tomorrow, too. aack! i can't believe sembreak's over. huhu. everything has to end, *sniff* including the good ones. bahala na. haayyy...
gotta sleep. cheerios!

i just had to post this! it totally made me drool! heehee.. think it's silly? i don't. >=P being an anime fan.. he is such a hottie! makes me want to be an anime chrcter. haha. i mean, look at that bod.. and the way he stares! *faints* so... soo... soooo dreamy.. =P
i took a quiz in quizilla to pass the time away (i know, it's 12am. im waitin for my parents).. who is your dream guy... check it out. it's under the most popular quizzes. uh, i didn't get that guy in my result (coz he's for the perfect guy).. i got the romantic guy.. suits me well,too. haha.

i am pissed off. very. and my head is fucking aching right now, throbbing madly. and do i know the reason why i'm so mad? actually i don't.. and i'm taking a ride on one of my hellish mood swings!!! and thanks to *erhm* "those days." a girl thing, okei? and darn, i hate it when they come... my nose is stuffy, too. sheesh.

my family and i spent three days and two nights in batangas. uhm, i didnt really want to come, but i foresaw that my dad would convince me, too, maybe with a bribe or two.. so to spare him the effort, i willingly packed my bags and went with them. i was supposed to go toek with jodee and just and aud and darell but... blood is thicker than water, though jodee said "ama mo ko, sunod ka sakin." hahaha.. silly. my cousin, dan, was also there. uhm, i didn't do much actually. just slept and read.. and ate.. shot some hoops.. played a little xbox (i confirm that i suck at nba live!) and played a lot of badminton with my dad! haha.. my right arm kindda hurts but i'm not complaining coz i got to practice my smashes and backhands. :) owww... my legs kindda hurt, too. so much for being active. x_X when we got back from batangas, i watched mulanII! wiii! there's a sequel to my favorite favorite cartoon! :) mulan and general shang got married. wiii happy ending!

after dinner, i bullied my brothers who were using the pc to play that darn runescape. hehe.. and when i sat, i got pissed off suddenly. argh... then i chatted, of course. mom and dad went to tita edith's place. ohh.. kitang kita pala ung bahay namin mula sa labas kasi inaayos ung windows.. ang lamig.. -_- feeling ko parang wala kaming walls.

know what? it took me four freaking hours to finish this post. and im feeling better now.. =) my headache's gone and my nose aint stuffy anymore. i've talked to several friends now.. guy friends actually (heck, i always talk to guys...) and out of the nine guys and more that i've tlked to (yes, they're all close friends), only oniisan was able to guess why i'm on one of my mood swings. heehee. kakatuwa. and he's 1% girl daw. lol. thanks oniisan, you spared me the gimme-a-clue-on-why-you're-feeling-bitchy- thing. period. (LOL!) guys are just sooo easy to talk to. well, that's how i feel. =)

gtg now. it's 2 am now. sleep mode. -_- ciao.

we'll be going to batangas this evening and will be staying there up to saturday. wooo.. no pc. no chat. vacation. i'll be able to smell fresh air.. mixed with the pungent smell of the pigs. haha. dad told me months ago that "it's the smell of money." yeah ryt. -_- kungsabagay, malaki rin ang kita sa pigs. haayy.. uhm. if you got the impression that i'm feeling happy coz i'll be taking a break from the internet, well, it's half correct. i'll be missing my beloved computer.. and mirc.. and friendster.. and ym.. tsaka.. ay wag na nga. -_- huhu.. naiisip ko na naman. *arghhh* knina p pla ako ngcha-chat. pgkakain ng dinner (ang aga, 6pm), pinaalis ko ung mga brothers ko sa pc. or was it earlier? anyway.. ksma pla ung mga pinsan namin. buti na lang at least may kalaro ako dun or kakwentuhan. my sister can't come with us kasi may prctce pa ng speech choir at defense sa programming. -_- i wonder what i'll be doing there in batangas.... bhla na.. cge.. ciao!

oh man. why am i so crazy? i was feeling happy then the next moment i was bad tripped then the next next moment, im happy again, which is now. whatdaheck?! haha. sometimes i can't believe that it just takes soooo little to make me happy again. is it a good thing or a bad thing? well, iunno exactly.. but it's working greatly for me. =)

am i getting obsessed (AGAIN) or what?! hahaha... wala lang. i just found out that mark from cmq! confirmed my friend request. he's such a cutie. galing pa mag-drums. =) pero loyal pa rin ako kay japoy. hahaha! happy happy...

anyway. what happened? i actually opened my eyes at around 9:30 but i still felt sleepy and btw, the carpenters already arrived and were working. inaayos n nla ung cr mlpit sa kwarto namin. imagine the dust! my body grudgingly stood up and arranged the bed at 12pm coz it was already lunch time and wla n rin ung mga karpintero. hay.. after lunch i stayed in my parents' room and watched tv aaaaaaaaalllllll day and read a couple of pages from the book im currently reading.

i iunno... napalipat ako dun sa chatlink and cablelink channels. wla lng. naalala ko lng kasi na dati na-addict ako dun.. heehee.. you know the feeling of seeing your txt message on tv? lolz. i know it's corny but i earned a couple of friends (and admirers) from there. masaya siya kaso magastos. pero okei lang. my addiction started nung summer ng 2nd year ko.. andun kc ako sa apartment ng mommy nina ko (auntie..) and since walang magawa, ngttxt ako dun. eventually i got tired of it. ah onga pala, it started earlier pa ! heehee.. that was how i met chun, a friend of mine and txtmate for four years already. =) bakasyon dn kc un and walang mgawa; that time, nsa makati naman ako. dati, txting in chatrooms like those were simpler, no codes, pictures from the net, colors, etc. kaya siguro tinamad na rin ako. naisip ko nga na kng hindi ko tinigilan ang pgttxt sa ganun, cguro alam ko kng pano rin gwin ung gngwa ng ibang chatters.. mrming txtmate.. cguro may txt bf (eew!).. and ten times poorer dhl sa load. heehee. mas kuntento na ako sa mirc and ym! libre na mas marami pang tao.. pamparami rin ng friends at friends sa friendster. =D minsan lang di ko alam kung bakit may mga guys na ngttxt dun nakalagay, "need pretty girls na kausap sa phone, call (number)" kakausapin mo lang naman bakit kailangang maganda pa? para ba ganahan makipag-usap dahil nai-imagine ng guy ang ichura? dhl ba baka makasungkit siya ng magandang gf sa pamamagitan ng phone? para ba makipag-meet or makipag-date at ligawan na ng tuluyan? eh paano kung maganda nga, boring naman kausap, prang tuod? kung hindi pala tlga maganda ung kinakausap nya? kung bading at boses babae lng? di ba dapat ang hnhnap mo sa kausap eh ung talino or wit at kakayahang makapagdala ng conversation? well, cno ba namang hindi matutuwa kung maganda nga or gwapo ang kausap, hindi ba? kht naman ako cguro matutuwa.. pero sa tingin ko bonus na lang ang looks sa tao.

bkt ko nga ba nasabi yang mga yan? naobserve ko lang. opinions, ya know. heehee.. teka. midnight snack muna. ciao!

hm.. we''ll be going to everest memorial park later. it's already 3pm and we still aren't getting ready. papa said ppnta kmi ng afternoon para raw hindi mainit. eh hindi ba hapon na ngyon? wala lng. heehee.. ah, nakagawa ulit ako ng blog sa friendster.. di kasi ako makapag-comment sa blog ni.. heehee. darn. pero shempre mas mahal ko pa rin ang blog kong 'to. it somehow reflects the real me. uupdate ko na rin cguro ung una kong blog sa.. first acct? ewan. bahala na. ano naman kaya ang itty-type ko dun... T_T

haay, ang alikabok pa rn dito sa bahay.. november one ngyon and akala ko holiday ng mga karpintero. un pala hindi. -_- well.. naisip ko nga na baka mamaya rin sila pupunta.. sayang ang kita di ba. *cough cough* *wheeze*

sana mrming pascal sa everest or kbatch.. or munscian. bsta kakilala...

happy birthday pala edherson!!! heehee..

happy.. all saints' day! heehee.. okei i just made that up. here's another greeting: happy halloween! =P though a little late, at least i greeted. heehee. i wasnt able to update 'coz we got home 'round ten in the evening from the cemetery, loyola memorial park in paranaque (u peepz should check out the "paranaque city" lighted signs there. haha. so saucy!). darn, i dont know how to make the enye. T_T anyway, i didnt even know that we were going to loyola until 6pm yesterday. haha. i thought we were only to fetch my sister, vanessa from makati.. it was afternoon when we got there, with auntie olive preparing spag (she used angel hair, which was somethin new for my taste buds. looked like sotanghon nga. haha.). yeaaahhh! after eating, i headed to my room. and guess what... i slept! haha. i was watching tv but i felt sleepy.. the presence of apple and mao did nothing to alleviate the sleepiness i felt. it was a good one hour of sleep and then vanessa came to my room and told me we were goin to loyola. woooweee. well, it was better than going home that early anyway. when we got there, our mom and dad dropped us five kids and tita fern and mommy nina; they drove around, looking for a parking space, which took a long time. we headed to nanay's (my grandma) lot and ate mayang's.. tita fern said, " maraming cutie dito! .dun sa mga mausoleum.. andun ang pretty people!" hahahaha! fine, i admit. that's one of my reasons why i become so ecstatic everytime we go to cemeteries. hey, im only a girl who... uhm... appreciates fine things. lol. so much for being dubbed as a boy huntress. hahaha. she added, "sabi ng tita ko, walk slow and scan. walk slow para nai-scan ka rin nila.. at scan para makahanap ka." bingo! see, it stuck on my mind. heehee.. mommy nina and tita bought us ice cream.. then we went to the other side to visit our other dead relatives. i didnt get the chance to know them coz death already whisked them in his arms when i still wasn conceived. aww. i bet they were really great relatives. =) i just hope each one of them is already in paradise. after a while, my parents finally walked to us, together with auntie zeny and auntie olive, apple, ate gay, kuya nonong, and sam. my aunts and cousins stayed in nanay's and ate mayang's lot. we had pizza and bbq for dinner. swell. heehee. i had a twenty-peso taho pa nga before that. i was soooo full. ang sarap ng taho in fairness. we stayed there for three hours more or less and i didnt get to see any cute guy. i contented myself in listening to the ipod. oh yeah, we bought those flashy lights stuff. ah, technology. it fascinates us, really. may magagamit na ako mamaya sa everest hills. hehe. sana maraming pascal dun! at cute guys. heehee.. so... 10pm i went online. tita fern and mommy nina slept here at home. heehee. i chatted with that lebanese guy, mark, and he seems so nice. good english btw. ang dami ngang nag-pm sakin and ang saya. hehe. tpos nkchat ko si ochie. buti di n sya ngllaro kgbi. pero nasa shop kasi siya. and 11:30 n nun. ppnta nga rin cla s sementeryo s prnque and pampanga. it means uuwi sha dun. wala lng. nkchat ko rin si ferna, kuya ryan, nc, kuya john, hiro, ate lhen, etc... may inamin na rin ako kay kuya john at nc. kasi wala lang. gusto ko lang may masabihan. it's very ironic kasi eh.. cla lng ung available close friends na pwede kong masabihan. kasi kapag tinago ko un, i'd surely go crazy. hay.. gusto ko nga batukan ang sarili ko.. argh. x_X di bale, pipilitin ko n lng mawala 'to. -_- di ba nga di ako ngppligaw sa chat at text, coz i really hate that. tpos ngyon MEDYO crush ko ung isa kong kchat. tsk tsk. i can be so damn weird sometimes. haaayy.. what am i gonna do.... T_T come what may! haha..