Five Rays of Sunshine
I think I met "gay-best-friend-that-I-never-had" this afternoon, as I was making a beeline towards the underpass. Apparently, I wasn't the only one fascinated by the brilliant blue of my umbrella.
"Ate, pasukob naman. Lakas ng ulan eh."
Forever the puzzled, I felt that time delay which allowed me to sort out the situation.
"What?"
I knew I was frowning a little but I also had the urge to laugh because some strangers really do have the courage to ask permission from people whom they have just seen on the street! I was simply too amused that I obliged and even let him hold my umbrella. For the next 3-minute walk, I found out where he's from, his school, how high the flood is in front of SM, and that you can ride an FX to Paranaque! We even looked at the same boys and wore eyeliners. Cool, yeah? :) As we came to my exit, I had mixed thoughts: should I walk him to his exit? Should I ask for his number? How about his name? But just like in the movies, I let go.
"Ingat."
Relationships are defined by how much or how not-so-much people give in to them. Our instant friendship is already perfect in an unconventional way; I don't want to mar it. If we're meant to be true friends, then destiny always has that special way of making people's paths cross. The excitement of waiting, of anticipating, of hoping for that repeat encounter.. Don't you love the feeling? I know I do. Perhaps on a day similar to this one, I'll meet him again. And perhaps on a day similar to this one, I'll get his name and number, too.
P.S.
Gay BFF is just one of today's five rays of sunshine.
blueberry had a little lamb last 8/24/2011 10:49:00 PM
A day like any other
Dear You,
I didn't forget your birthday.
I just want you to feel how it's like to miss someone until it hurts. For 11 hours and 59 minutes, I think I may have succeeded.
I didn't forget your birthday.
Our four years would have been pretty useless if I did. I know we were never a couple, but those years are rightfully ours because of the unknown tears that I've shed, the laughter you brought, and all the in-between emotions that used to come in torrents but now have subsided into gentle waves.
I didn't forget your birthday.
I wonder what ever gave you the idea that I ever could. Just the thought that you think I did gnaws on my soul and is killing me slowly.
Heaven grants wishes only if they are sincere; perhaps I can bank on that. If it's the only way that can bring back happier times then I want to be the one to make that wish instead of you, for you.
Until you can comprehend the gravity of everything. Forever,
V
blueberry had a little lamb last 8/21/2011 09:50:00 PM
Cars, Confidence, & UPCAT
Jaw-dropping
While in Ortigas, I saw this bad ass Hummer. I couldn't help but smile coz t'was one heck of a sight! It slowed a bit then honked in front of me and my mates. The sound reverberated, went inside my head and made everyone on the street jump. I've never quite appreciated Hummers until today. The owner surely knows how to roll! ;)
You there, sexy.
I'm used to driving sedans so I still don't know how it feels to drive big cars. I have completed my mental "What-Car-I-Want" daydream list:
Hyundai Tucson 2011
Mazda CX-7
Lexus RX-350
I know they aren't what females would typically want to buy... But, but, but.. Them sleek curves, all at the right places! And the lights are just sophisticated. I get hypnotized whenever I see any of these cars on the road, so much that my head swivels just to take long looks. Sigh. Next to food boys, I can easily fall in love with cars... *dreamy* Haha. :)
How to start your morning
I was running a bit late so I decided to go to the office without make-up, just lip gloss and foundation. My mates were teasing me about having no eyes yet; I'd rather go bare-faced than be late. Yeah, I'm professional like that, loljk. =P Anyhoo, I got my kit and went to the mirror. Kuya Ed, the maintenance guy, heard me saying that I look ugly (without make-up). What I heard next completed my day:
"Nasanay ka lang pero maganda ka pa rin kahit walang make-up."
(You just got used to it. You're still beautiful without make-up.)
Oh, di ba! Ang haba ng hair ko. Hahaha. Seriously, I really thanked the heavens because they sent me another person who never fails to appreciate me. Hay. It feels good to have your confidence boosted so early! :)
UPCAT 2011
The fateful weekend has come.. August 6 & 7, UP Diliman. To all who will be taking the UPCAT:
1) Keep your hopes up.
2) Read all instructions carefully.
3) Be confident and maintain a clear head, the answers will come to you.
4) If not.. take a smart stab. Take note of the word SMART, my dearies!
5) Bring energy food. Chocolates help. Hehe. :D
Me and my sis are going to accompany our bro; he'll be taking the exam, too! I hope he'd be able to continue the UP streak. Good luck and God bless! :)
blueberry had a little lamb last 8/05/2011 08:03:00 PM
Of typhoons and the internet
Following my blog resurrection, I've updated my Google accounts, Formspring, Tumblr, and Twitter.
What happened today? I slept in for a couple of extra minutes because it was raining hard; thought twice about going to work. Apparently, the older we get, the more waterproof we are expected to be. Say that to the stranded employees.
Bad morning, yes. I was on the verge of crying while typing a TNR, font 10, whole page, single-spaced, pw-protected word doc entry about work. My parents and I aren't exactly fond of meeting halfway when it comes to some things, well, actually only on that matter, but we do try hard to compromise. Perhaps they can't bear my current situation. Anyway, words come faster when I write or type, and straight English at that, as compared to when I talk. I can't help but revel at the fluidity of the words and enjoy the natural high that I get.
By afternoon, I have calmed down but still at my wit's end because I couldn't access Pottermore. Pffttt.
But, but, but! I got my new baby today...
Say HI, Tripp!!!
The urge to squeal was successfully repressed while I was talking with the GM. Tripp is an HP i3-430. Lightweight, widescreen, HD, fast (as in) and very sleek an' handsome. He's cool like that. :D He has a different wallpaper now and I've loaded songs to keep my office files company. Got inspired by Sarah Palin's kids hence the name.
Oh Tripp, you're the only good thing that has happened to me today.
I wonder when I'm gonna say that to a real guy. LOL. Toodles!
blueberry had a little lamb last 8/02/2011 08:55:00 PM
I'm alive again but I still suck at titles.
To be honest, I thought I've given up on this blog. Okay, I did decide to revert back to the traditional pen and paper journal but I am having a hard time updating it, too. Typing is convenient but writing is more manageable especially when you don't have internet access all the tim
e. You must be thinking what I liar I am for saying that because my FB, Tumblr, and Twitter accounts are
very active. I simply prefer not to use my lappy-toppy when in my room, upstairs. So, there.
Why am I even bothering to update this blog when all I'm doing right now is blabbering nonsense? Should I just keep quiet and let the real bloggers do their thing? My last post was like, November 2010 and it ain't even a real post because it was just a reblog from my Formspring. I can be a loser like that. I'm so sorry, blog. On the other hand, If I tell everything that has happened to me, it'd just be a big snooza-palooza. A couple of phrases and I'm sure you'll immediately click "x" and think, "Story of your life. K."
So what really is the point of this entry? Just because. I have too many memories with this blog. Some of the entries I had wanted to print and stick to my journal back then. I started this when I was in high school, when I was still awesomely crazy with the internet, when I was known as temari in mIRC, as the biggest blueberry cheesecake lover. It was when I still had braces on and I took pride in my rainbow-colored bands. This blog was one of my best friends during my teen years. She was there when I loved, cried, loved, and cried again. When I graduated from MunSci and got accepted in UPM. I bet she was as proud as my parents because I made it to the top state university, and even prouder when I finally got out after a lot of hurdles. Year after year, we "talked" to each other less and less until my posting stopped.
But just like an old friend, she's always there although you don't see one another. You don't need her physical presence to know she's around because... You just know that she is. And when you finally meet each other again, words would just act as limits to everything that you wanna say. Imagine looking at her eyes and getting that twinkle of recognition, of knowing everything that you've gone through, all your emotions. Without words. I guess the world just works wonderfully like that.
That's precisely how I feel with my blog. And you know what, if she were a real person, I think my first words to her would be, "Hey, I got a job now. Would you believe it?" :)
blueberry had a little lamb last 8/01/2011 10:14:00 PM
