blueberry/cheesecake

off the usual

1. i just saw spongecola's vid of "movie" and surprise surprise, daniel naval was there! kahit na malabo yung tv, i immediately recognized him. i sooooo LOVE daniel naval! especially his cute smile. heehee.. sana i could meet him in person. he's very nice raw. and sana he could be on candy's cover!^^

2. oh yeah, i'm already on retainers. after 3 years, finally! i'm a step closer to getting metallic stuff out of my mouth (hehe) but it's not that i didn't love my braces. i got kindda attached to them. bah, it's fun choosing the color for the rubber.. and i have to admit that retainers are quite uncomfy. though the palates are smooth, they don't feel natural because well, they'e fake. it's like having a lot of gum stuck on your mouth. hehe. but the good thing is i can remove them after eating (for washing) and i can brush my normal teeth again. =P

3. im saying bye to anime, sleeping, and eating for now. we're going to nasugbu, batangas. or is it tagaytay? ay whatever! basta aalis kami. yehey! sana may dalang fun drinks sila auntie. >:)

-- off to chateau royale!^^

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/31/2007 11:28:00 AM

sooooo productive!

I slept at 4am, I woke up at 11:30.
I slept some more, woke up again at 2pm.
I read messages and deleted some.
I texted one person and attempted to text more.
I ate lunch grudgingly because I still wanted to sleep.
I tried to pack my stuff.. But I ended up sleeping.
That was 4pm. I woke up at 7pm.
I took a bath and watched School Rumble.
I gave in to the tummy rumblings and ate dinner at 10pm.
Buti na lang pumunta sila Mommy N. and Tita, may kasabay ako.
Now, I'm watching anime. I have a feeling this is going to be my lifestyle for the rest of the sembreak. I think I'll go for a drive tomorrow. -_-

p.s. I think I'm gaining weight. I've been eating cornflakes before going to sleep, chocolates, chocolates, chocolates, 2 dinners, yogurt, lots and lots of bread, fraps, triple decker cheesecakes, cheeseburgers, fries, sundaes... Eh. x_X

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/29/2007 11:44:00 PM

5 cm/sec + a friend's blog entry.

A side of me says:
I think I found someone whom I can like forever. But that's just what I think. He's smart. He's a real gentleman. He's sweet. He's caring. He's fun to be with. He does little things for me and those matter a lot. At first, I saw nothing in his eyes but eventually they warmed up. Now, I like the way his eyes soften when we talk. I learn a lot when with him because he pushes a lot of sense into my head. Though we're only starting to get closer, he makes me feel as if he'd always be there for me. He's like a wall that I can lean unto. It's not like I lack friends who support me. They're there, forever. But this time, I think I'd like to wholly depend on only one. I don't care if other people don't really like him. Too bad I cannot pursue this growing feeling. Because it's wrong. I'm glad that at least we're good friends. That should be enough.

My other side says:
I wonder what happened to "if he asked me to come back, i would"? (of course I'm referring to cheesecake) I bet you don't know. After two years, I thought you've already learned something? I guess you haven't. You're still as confused as ever. I guess that's what makes you you. :) I can see that you're mapping out possibilities of a future with him.. a lot of What-If's. You know that he's quite a hard person to deal with. But you've done it before and he appreciates the fact that you understood, understands, and will always do so. Looks like you caught him with his guard down because you managed to burrow into his soft side.

In the end, maybe it's only your imagination. Maybe every thing isn't of honest play. Maybe you're infatuated again. But really, I hope the feeling will go away because unfortunately, every thing's against you. I'm just glad that at least you're good friends. That should be enough.

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SAVE ME. I'M BORED TO DEATH. x_X
(walks away and gets tons of anime cds)

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/26/2007 01:04:00 PM

5 centimeters per second

"Hey.. It's 5 centimeters per second."

"Huh? What?"
"The velocity of a cherry petal when it falls, 5 centimeters per second.."

I. Oukashou

"At this moment, I feel as if I know where eternity, heart, and soul are... I know we cannot be together forever. Our future looks big for now but is limited by time. Everything is happening without anything we can do."

II. Cosmonaut

"It must be a lonely journey that I cannot imagine. Intently going forward only through true darkness... Only believing that there is something at the edge of the world. With that thought, how far can we go?"

"At the same time, I understand that he never looks at me... Tohno-kun is kind, very kind. But Tohno-kun is always looking at something that I can never see. My wish won't be granted. Even so, I like Tohno-kun even after today... tomorrow... forever."

III. Byousoku 5 Centimeter

"Yesterday I saw a dream about the past. In that dream we were both 13 years old and we were in a wide, snowy, empty field. The lights that come from the houses looked dim and only our tracks were on the road that passed us by. With that scenery, someday we will see the cherry blossoms together again."

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Never mind the double k.o.'s this sem, I'd rather be crying because of this anime. It's been quite a while since i wondered (yes, wondered) what it's like to experience love for the first time, how it is to be hurt, and just how much distance and longing the heart can take. I don't care if it's mushy, i absolutely love it. *sniff* made by Shinkai Makoto, Byōsoku Go Senchimētoru is a serious and very touching masterpiece. Go watch it. =)

"I always end up searching everywhere for your smile, even though I know you won't be there... If I could repeat my life, I would be there by your side forever. There is no one else that I would want besides you.."

P.S. Thanks to Kuya John for giving me this wonderful copy, plus a freebie anime. Yehey!^_^

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/26/2007 03:23:00 AM

18th of october

three (or four? five?) more exams to go until i can finally finally finally have my much-deserved sembreak. man, i'm so exhausted (the recurring slight fever is evidence enough). i want to SLEEEEPPPP! oh bed, i'm missing you so much!

the highs and lows :

for starters, my moa buddies and i went ice skating!
i had no classes, tuesday.
we watched stardust, wednesday.
chem 31 exam, thursday.
bio101 final exam *arrrgghhh!!! this is frustrating me like hell*, friday.
pangasinan for this weekend. another excuse to be excited! wheee..^^
chem31 final exam, monday.
math100 final exam, tuesday.
math100 removal exam, wednesday (i have a strong feeling i'm gonna be taking it).

happy days mixed with the not-so-happy ones. and well, aside from the academic frustrations, i'm having a hard time dealing with something. i'm gonna tell in due time. maybe.

i'm having the best and the worst. this is emotionally draining. do i hear alarms? am i seeing red? is that you, depression? (x_x)

p.s. congrats to my blockmates (gome, noel, pao, huckie) for winning the basketball game earlier. yey! sayang hindi ako nakaabot. next time..^^

p.s.2. wala lang. ^_____^

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/18/2007 09:47:00 PM

ippen shindemiru?

-habang nasa jeep pauwi galing festi-

kuya mark: "ate, magsabi ka nga ng name ng taga-*toot* na *toot* eng. ang kinukuha"
vika: (kinabahan) "ahh! si *toot*!"
km: "ahahaha! oo siya nga! nakilala namin sya.. tapos ate alam mo ba nung tinanong ko siya tungkol sa'yo, biglang nanahimik... dun ko na-feel na..."
v: "waaahhh!!! kuya!!! talaga?! grabe, nakaka-miss talaga yun.. huhu.."

hanggang ngayon napapa-isip ako. and i think my suspicion is correct.. that i'm still stuck on him. oo na, panget yung nangyari dati pero hindi pa naman ata tapos ang kwento namin. well, as long as wala pa siyang gf ulit. hehe!! wala lang, nakaka-miss siya, sobra. at sa tingin ko, if he asked me to come back, i would. ehehe.. =P
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dapat pala nagd-drawing na ako for invert zoo.. pero nakakatamad pa. siguro mamayang mga 4:30 na lang (current time: 4:06). naaral ko na rin naman 'yung macro and taxo. sooo.. study break 'to! yeah!
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i'm downloading jigoku shoujo futakomori.
it's hell girl season two. if you haven't seen the first one, go download it! it's one of the best animes: graphics, characters, storyline. it's a definite must watch! :)

"ippen shindemiru"

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/14/2007 03:55:00 PM

(x_x)

sched for the week:

monday: 101 discussion, moa ice skating (hehe!), 116 lab review
tuesday: chem 31 discussion, 116 lec exam, math 100 mock exam
wednesday: 101 lab exam
thursday: 101 lec exam, 116 lec journal critique submission, 116 lab quiz
friday: no classes
saturday: math 100 exam, 116 lab exam, 116 lab manual submission

ayan. sana lang buhay pa 'ko pagkatapos nito di ba. kahit walang pasok ng friday, kelangan pa rin talaga mag-aral dahil 2 exams kinabukasan. pero sana ilipat ng monday ung 116 lab exam para hindi naman sabay sa math. -_- aun. tsaka na ang matinong update. sana sembreak na. huhuhu..

blueberry had a little lamb last 10/07/2007 11:23:00 PM