i sooooo love this day!
weeeehhh!!!!!! our pc's fixed!!! yay! i'm soooo overjoyed!!! anyway, our retreat just ended earlier at 5 pm in the afternoon.. i learned a lot of things. although it's not my favorite event, it's the best ever!
i arrived late and the session was already starting. good thing the retreat master started the per section activities . i thought it was gonna be boring.. we started off with the discussion of "rejection" and... grabe! natamaan ako sa mga sinabi ni kuya mike. i thought of the two times i rejected jm. first was during the prom night and the second was when he asked for another chance.. (T__T) then the affirmation activity came next and it was where you're going to praise your groupmates.. no but's and if's. too bad because we ran out of tym and we had to say everything in times 4 speed. waaaaahhhh!!! we also had the candle lighting ceremony where a person was gonna hand the white (thank you) or red (sorry) candle to the person he/she wants to say something to. i said to myself that i wasnt gonna cry but... i broke down infront of my bestfriend! hehe.. i started saying thank you and before i knew it, i was crying and i could hardly speak! and we were given the chance to hug everyone in our section and in the other sections. uhm.. our session ended and we went back to our rooms. the girls were separated from the boys. jm and i talked outside the room, which was legal by the way, and then... he asked me for another chance but i didnt give it to him (again) coz i know i'll just hurt him and i cant return his feelings. yeah, sad.. sad.. too bad for you fans of our love team.. tsk tsk.. ^^; im not angry with him.. anyway, i was not that emotional during the second day of the retreat. im pretty happy with my family and i feel proud and lucky and blessed to have them!!! i mean, we arent facing any probs and we're at peace with each other. our needs and wants are given. too bad i didnt receive any letter from my parents but i understand. mom's busy and she had appointments so she wasnt able to attend the meeting. dad's not here in the country. we can always talk naman. uhm.. i think i have to stop being so demanding, ya know. im a spoiled brat and sometimes it gets into my head too much that when my mom says "no" to a whim (like askin for a new celfone though my phone's still ok) i start thinkin "why am i sooo unlucky?! she's so unfair.. huhu" i should gve more importance to the hard- earned money. hay... this is one of the disadvantages of being a brat who gets what she wants most of the time.. im too blind to see how my parents work hard for the money. *naks...* anyway.. i spent more than i should have spent.. hay.. i wonder what happened to my change of heart. hehe!
my head hurted terribly coz i didnt sleep in the afternoon. i was soooo sleepy but the discussion was still on going and i cant go to the cr.. waaaaaahhh... we went home at around 5pm.. home sweet home.. i missed my bed!
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/02/2005 09:55:00 PM
