waiting...
im turning nocturnal and... im going back to my old addicted-to-the-net self. this day has been like a foreign dish that you can't figure out what the ingredients and the taste are...
heat the pan and toss in a lot of happiness and mix some hurt. stir fry with sadness and pour jealousy. after a few minutes, add another hurtful past experience in love and friends' opinions. turn the heat higher. of course, dont forget to put the calming words. pour in more jealousy after mixing another cup of hurt. finally, put a funny koreanovela and sprinkle a large amount of laughter. this may result in hyperactivity but with a positive mood. allow to simmer in low heat. pour in acceptance and cups of sacrifice plus a dash of drama. finally, mix in someone's regret, prayer, and repentance. toss in some patience. stir with a lot of music for additional great taste.
oh yeah, i slept at 3am and woke up at 7:45. 4 hours of sleep? not bad. i dont like commuting, especially this time of the year. like, hell-o?! it's already april and we still have classes. i went to lola bunny for autoload. when i turned around, i saw justin. what followed next was a brilliant exchange of lines.
me: ui!
justin: ui!
see how brilliant?! belch... but i felt really happy. =) anyway, i went downstairs again to get the damned xerox copies of my card. andrei was with me and we passed by the canteen. before that, i saw justin on the hallway and gave him the autograph book. i apoogized to jansen for not brining my calculator. damn it! i feel so bad. around 12pm, mom fetched me from school. i ate lunch, got dressed... and fell asleep. good thing we didnt continue our plan to go to up manila coz when i called up, the results were moved to wednesday. oh great! they're really fast... ¬_¬ i continued with my slumber but was disrupted by the halo2x that my brothers bought. wow! for the first time they treated us. a sure way to beat the heat.. although it wasn't enough, it made me feel somewhat cooler. like the usual, i sat on my "throne" (meaning the chair infront of the pc) and started chatting! the number of munscians that chat has decreased now adays.. i guess it's because they're studying for their finals. good luck to them! i learned that dad jodee and some pascal people were in festival, along with some juniors. awww! i wanted to go to the mall! too bad... sen went online and we chatted for a while. the best thing i heard today (or perhaps, read) was "basta... gusto ko ung ugali mo.. mas mabait ka kesa sa mga kakilala kong babae." awww shux! that was really nice and touching! =) =^-^= but damn it.. he ruined it later on. he asked if rachel went online. damn... of all girls, why, oh. why. an. in.co.ming. fresh.man. that's... shit. i wanted to scream at jansen and say that i'm jealous! hiro and marvin comforted my sorrowful soul but i just couldn't make myself okay, especially that we're tackling issues about justin and jansen. ouch, man! marvin's a sweet guy. no wonder many like him. =) he said that he hopes justin would realize my importance to his life one day and then we can get together finally. people only realize the importance after facing a loss. aww.. sen set his "away" mode and said "mmya n lng kpg may makakausap na." huhuhuhuhu! i started thinking that he doesnt want me to talk to him na.. i didnt pm him when he got back. i was actaully so hurt. was this karma? ergh.. i decided to do what i did before with justin: let him be happy and make him feel that i'm still there for him, all the time and i'd be glad to take him back with open arms... sweet? dramatic? emo! well, that's how i feel and... if that would make him happy then why not? i only want the best for him. or what he thinks is the best for him. *huff* full house came and i macked jansen! yeah!!! we started talking in chat again and our first topic was full house of course! i changed my nick to "`jessie." i dont know.. i can relate to her somehow. she's kind, sweet... strong... ready to give anthing for her loved one's happiness. (-_-) kuya john said jessie was stupid and i was superior. huh?! haha.. yeah, im not that stupid but i can be a martyr like her. full house did it's magic on me and changed my mood into a light and hyperactive one. better, right? jm macked me and asked for forgiveness. after what he did, he expects me to accept his apology just like that? nah.. i dont think so! i told him that it takes time and i cant accept his sorry yet. he's so Godly now. good for him. he better change his attitude. im the type of person who doesnt easily forget, especially if terribly hurt. although im a warm person, i can be the coldest one you'd ever know. ends of the extremes? yeah, that's me.
sen is still sleeping. i wonder what happened to his "20minutes." sen and i talked about finding someone like jessie and how lucky he'd be to have one, just in case. i told him that he better take care of her and love her truly, nurture their love and be loyal. he said that he doesnt know how but he hopes he'd be able to learn, his first gf would be experimental. hn. silly boy. i hope he does find his "jessie" and love her truly. mushy mushy mushy...
blueberry had a little lamb last 4/12/2005 02:30:00 AM
