wow..
i used to believe that the lores about friday the 13ths were just.. lores. until this year that is. jm found out about me and jansen and things turned upside down. i dont want to recall the details coz what happened really hurt me. sen said that he wasn't so sure about his feelings for me and that tripped the line. my tears started flowing and i said to him that he should think things over and that he shouldn't forget that i love him (awww.. haha). i was crying my heart out until 3 in the morning. my sister was already sleeping and i had this urge to wake her up and have her comfort me but i changed my mind. it was silly. my day started out real bad. dad jodee called and invited me to go to the mall. actually i didnt want to go out coz im sure i looked wasted. my eyes felt puffy and so swollen. when i looked into the mirror, i saw some red freckle-like stuff in my eyelids. i got a little freaked out. my mind said that it was caused by my crying.. maybe. things got worst because of my mom. hay. she's so pakialamera talaga minsan and i can't make her attitude out. vanessa and i talked about what happened and all that. jeez, i can't live without her. she's my stronghold during times like this and she keeps me sane and rational. i can't imagine life without her. she said that she's going to threaten jansen. haha. anyway, when night came... jm apologized for the way he acted and he said that he has already accepted things. then jansen macked me. i was in the low down and he said that he wasn't used to my mood. i said that i was okay but he replied that he could feel that i wasn't. he told me to cheer up. helloooo?!?! earth to jansen?! how was i gonna cheer up after what happened? we talked about several stuff and i began to feel better. he said that he could feel that,too. aww.. i though that maybe we had an invisible connection. haha. i ate some biscuits and that too helped me. i thought he was going to say something stupid again instead he told me that he loves me. wow! i didn't want to get my hopes too high and i asked him if he had thought of it and if it was true. he said... yes. omg!!! wooowwwww... the tide has turned! i got jansen back. hahaha... my tears didn't go to waste after all... hay...... i'm so happy again... cge na.. ciao! i hafta sleep..... the only productive things i did were sweeping the floor and changing the pillow covers.. i slept the whole day... ZzzZzzz...
blueberry had a little lamb last 5/15/2005 02:42:00 AM
