A side of me says:
I think I found someone whom I can like forever. But that's just what I think. He's smart. He's a real gentleman. He's sweet. He's caring. He's fun to be with. He does little things for me and those matter a lot. At first, I saw nothing in his eyes but eventually they warmed up. Now, I like the way his eyes soften when we talk. I learn a lot when with him because he pushes a lot of sense into my head. Though we're only starting to get closer, he makes me feel as if he'd always be there for me. He's like a wall that I can lean unto. It's not like I lack friends who support me. They're there, forever. But this time, I think I'd like to wholly depend on only one. I don't care if other people don't really like him. Too bad I cannot pursue this growing feeling. Because it's wrong. I'm glad that at least we're good friends. That should be enough.

My other side says:
I wonder what happened to "if he asked me to come back, i would"? (of course I'm referring to cheesecake) I bet you don't know. After two years, I thought you've already learned something? I guess you haven't. You're still as confused as ever. I guess that's what makes you you. :) I can see that you're mapping out possibilities of a future with him.. a lot of What-If's. You know that he's quite a hard person to deal with. But you've done it before and he appreciates the fact that you understood, understands, and will always do so. Looks like you caught him with his guard down because you managed to burrow into his soft side.

In the end, maybe it's only your imagination. Maybe every thing isn't of honest play. Maybe you're infatuated again. But really, I hope the feeling will go away because unfortunately, every thing's against you. I'm just glad that at least you're good friends. That should be enough.

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SAVE ME. I'M BORED TO DEATH. x_X
(walks away and gets tons of anime cds)