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Yesterday was Andrei's last day here in Manila. I call him "panget" because we have this love-hate relationship that started 2 years ago. For a while we had something going on (LOL!). Now I simply think of it as a big joke that made him one of those special people. We ended it and are in good terms although we really didn't have the chance to recover. It would've been great if we got to hang out more because yesterday was also the first time in (years then) monthssss that I saw him again. I thought that it would be just like any other tambay nights with them, (code switch!) 'yung puro kalokohan at kwentuhan lang. 'Di ko rin naiwasang makaramdam ng lungkot, sakit, at panghihinayang. Cliche na pero... Kung alam ko lang na aalis siya ng ganito kaaga, sana di na 'ko umiwas at nagsuplada.. At nag-deny-to-death na 'di ko ginagawa ang mga iyon sa kaniya. Hahaha. Kaya nagpasalamat at nag-sorry na rin ako kagabi.

(code switch ulit)
I fell asleep. Took the test. Chatted with friends. Traveled between two cities back and forth. I still couldn't shake the feeling of being heartbroken. Weird but I guess he became special because he hurt me... And from there I learned a great deal about myself, among many things.

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