last night
12 a.m. I drove out and got him.
1a.m. 2 a.m., in a SLEX gasoline station, highly relieved.Though he had to travel far, I still preferred it because at least I'm sure that he was safe with me.
3 a.m., at home, tried to relax but worry was still eating me alive. But I was happy and I tried hard to be happy.. Because someone as depressed as him wasn't what he needed.
4 a.m. 5 a.m.
In the dark, all I could hear was my own heart beating hard. All I could see was his form, lying.
Trying to sleep. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
=_= : Sabihin mo nga sa'kin.. Bakit hindi ako makatulog kagabi?
^.^ : Kasi hindi ka sanay na yung taong gusto mo natutulog katabi mo.
=_= : Sira. 'di kaya.
^.^ : Hehe. Syempre.. Kasi nag-iisip ka kung bakit ayaw niyang sabihin sa'yo. Kung bakit sinasarili niya ang mga bagay na hindi naman dapat sa kaniya lang. Guston mong kunin 'yung burden. Gusto mong ilabas niya sa'yo 'yun. Ayaw mong nakikita siyang problemado, nasasaktan, malungkot.. Na parang pasan ang lahat.
=_= : Galing.. Siguro 'yun na nga. *pause* Oo. Kasi masakit. Mabigat sa loob.
^.^ : Sobrang frustrated ka kasi andiyan ka nga pero parang wala ka namang magawa. Kitang-kita naman sa mga kilos mo 'yun kagabi eh.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
It was only during the morning that I managed to genuinely breathe freely because I saw in his eyes that he was calmer, more relaxed, and more rational. There were quite a few firsts that made me smile (and are still making me smile) but I still couldn't shake off the pain..
Last night, the world proved that when my emotions get the best of me, I can go to extreme lengths and stretch everything that seems unstretchable. Exhausting, so much in fact. But I kept going. And to think I did it all just for one person..?
blueberry had a little lamb last 10/22/2008 05:52:00 PM
